1/3/2026 Getting Replacement of My Lost One...

CASHLESS CULTURE:

I couldn't do much in the Office today 2, March 2026. I suppose to finalize on some Project Costing and Return. But the consultants whom suppose to finish all the design works but they couldn't meet the dateline. They need at least another 2-3 days. Thus I decided to fly off to KL with the intention to look for something that I had lost somewhere I don't when and where. I suppose to take the 1950 hours flight but was delayed to 2000. Landed in KLIA around 2145. I thought of getting a Grab but then I couldn't find the point where to take.  I asked one of the person whom seem to be the staff at the airport, instead of giving me the direction he asked me "Why?". His question puzzled me. Staring at him, then I realize he is a foreign worker.  Then only I remembered that there is a train service direct to the city center.  Well I had not been on the train since Oct., 2022 to this date, so much so I already began not to be familiar with lots of things around especially in KLIA.

(2)    I stayed at the Cititel, Mid Valley. This is not my best hotel but my habitual is die hard, I used to be loyal to a place where I used to be. I had been frequencing Cititel probably for about 25 years ago. Indeed I was informed by the Counter Lady, Cititel just celebrated their 25 years of existence few weeks back. The reason, in the past it was just next door to my favourite Book Store MPH and secondly I hope to get what I'm looking for at this Mid Valley Mall. Failing which, my next destination would be Pertama Complex and or Law Yatt. In those days, the hotel rate was only about RM145.00 per night and now I was charged RM297.00 for the Standard Room. Nothing had improved and they had very much reduced the facilities given for the guest. No more free mineral water in the room. The smaller towels are no more there. I arrived at the hotel around 22:00 hours and ordered for some light food and hot milk. They don't have hot milk. Worst since my card burst the limit for the day, I couldn't charge the bill to the room for the booking was made on-line. I handed over the Room Boy RM50.00 note, and the hotel has no change. So much so, it remind me of my complaint about the "tiada kembaliannya Pak" experiences that I had while in Jakarta lately.  

(3)     During the Break Fast on the 3 March, I went to Dome at the Garden Mall. Indeed, probably this is the latest addition to the Mid Valley Mall-Garden Mall, in between the two malls, there are lots of culinary outlets there and the aroma of the foods really tested my patience. Most of the outlets only accept cashless payment. I just got my buddy in the early morning and again my expenses burst my card limit for the day. The Dome still can accept cash but to the exact amount.  They keep no small changes. The food cost me RM75.50. I handed over RM100.00 with a smile of "keep the change" which is just equal to "ngak usah kembaliannya" in Indonesia or "Halal Halal" in Mecca and Madinah. 

FOUND MY EXCELLENT BUDDY:

As expected, around 10:30 hours on 3 March, 2026 I roamed the Mall and I could get "my buddy" just at the nearby store. Now I'm having 70 per cents of the full set.  In Shaa Allah my next acquisition is the telephoto lens for far distance capture. As per the 2026 review, this is the best camera generation first released for 2026. Sony A7 Mark V was released in late December 2025 and made available to Malaysian Market in February 2026. Indeed I almost bought the A7IV series in Nov., 2025, and if such was done, I would have regretted very much. 

(2)    My first camera while I was in school in 1975 was the Yashica cheap version. Upon working in 1986 I bought the Canon. Then in 2003, I used to fly in helicopter all over Sarawak and Papua New Guinea, so I have Canon EOS 1D X Mark II then III. My photographic interest then was so high, and every where I go, definitely the cameras and all the accessories and Note Book made 60 per cents of my load. 

(3)    Why I chosen Sony over Canon or other types? Sony is much compact to others. The body and lens shape I would say are nice "body line". Technology-wise, Sony is very fast evolving and really reacted to the demand of photo and cinematography environment. In term of pricing, Sony technology advancement seem to beat everybody at the same price range. This A7V is great for both photography and video making. I need this 2-in-1 functions to begin with my over due longing interest. I hope to get this launch by mid of 2026.

NG BY THE CORNER:

I went back to the same Camera Store on the 4 March. I bought the Macro Lens. I want to do the normal, telephoto and macro photography. My Kampung home compound now is rich with all sort of ornamental plants. I could see lots of birds are coming for their early morning feeding. I love to have their photos taken and recorded. In photography, I had fallen in love with the National Geography adventures. TV National Geography Wildlife serries glued me most to the sofa.  Definitely of late, humanity suffering and the disadvantaged socio-economic disparities images displayed by the NG photographers worldwide caught my serious attention.  For sure, natures had caught my long attention.  I want to advance myself to all these as the fulfilment of my next foot steps. Soon I would love to travel through whole Borneo. 

(2)    As I roamed the Mid Valley Mall to look for my usual landing place, the MPH Book Store, I bumped into the National Geographic Store. The MPH Book Store is no more in Mid Valley. I had been longing wanting to have NG Backpack and Sweater. I did ordered through the online sale, but the products supplied were not to my expectation. I was charged with very high price. Here, the products were genuine, more choices and to the specification that I needed and surprisingly they cost me only 50 per cents as compared to the online sale.

(3)   On the way back to the hotel and enroute to KLIA2, I bumped on Iranian Kiosk. I met Dilla a cute talkative Langkawi lady whom persuaded me to buy some of their merchandise. The Kiosk is dealing on those Iranian food products especially those honey, dates, beans and all sort of other tip-bits. I'm very interested to get all these beans which could help out in keeping my health check and sustainably good. I believe the vigor and nice skin texture of the Arabs and Persian and even the White are very much related to all these beans taking. In the past, I used to get these products either at Alamanda Putera Jaya or Bangi Gateway Mall. In Kuching I can't get those of "for sure good great qualities" which most are from China or India. I had great doubt over the products from these countries. Their processing method and substances used always of my very concern.

(4)    One thing good, Dilla offered to regularly meet my supplies if need be. She is willing to send over the products. My thought is always about how best I could then turn all these into money-making-hobby. In Shaa Allah.

PUZZLE BACK HOME:

I was suppose to fly back around 17:50 hours. Boarding supposed to be at J13. Then I got the message the flight was retimed to 17:30. Upon waiting at J13 for about an hour, an announcement was made that the boarding gate is changed to K8. That is a long bloody distance at this puasa time. Halfway through I board the buggy. Upon reaching K8, I saw a notice, the flight was delayed to 19:00 hours. Later, it was announced the flight was further delayed to 20:00. The issue didn't stopped there, while on the tarmac, the plane had to wait for another 20-30 minutes due to runway congestion. Looking back, I saw long que of planes and counted about 11 of them behind mine.

(2)    What was happening? I don't know why. I landed in Kuching around 22:00. I took a cab home. I avoid using Grab for the service in Kuching is slow. Cabs normally are queing at one corner of the KIA. I walked over and pointed to the first waiting cab. An old man, from the way his haged walking and dress up, he must be above 65 years old. I was worried. His car was also look old. It is late. I need to rush home fast and get my Sahur dishes fast. By the way upon boarding, I saw a kupiah on his dashboard and his radio sang some Malays oldies. While driving, his eyes seem focused to the road with his stiff body posture. To some extend he sped steadily between 60-80 KM. So I be a bit relax and confident on him. I kept quiet the whole journey. The only thing that I was not satisfied was the route that he chosen - he seem to know only one long way to my home. 

(3)    Crossing into my mind, Abang Johari is all out trying to promote Sarawak as key tourism destination, yet KIA taxi service I would say is sickening. What is our State tourism authorities doing in improving all these. I don't believe they had too much works to do to the extend they really can't notice all these tourism infrastructures and services gaps. Karim Hamzah, what is going on?

Kuching-Terasi, Sadong Jaya

5-6 March 2026.

4/1/2026 BEAUTY IS WOUND

Optimizing My Time:

Sabtu 31 Jan., seawal jam 0700 saya ke Pasar Satok untuk mengambil anak-anak benih pelbagai buah-buahan yang telah saya pesan. Kemudian pada jam 10:00 saya terus ke Bt 39 Sg Lamat Jalan Kuching-Serian juga bertujuan untuk mengambil benih limau manis dan madu. Kemudiannya, ke Tarat untuk membeli buah durian khas penghasilan kawasan tersebut. Tarat biasanya mengeluarkan jenis-jenis durian yang lazat. Sekitar sebulan lepas, di Tarat inilah saya menemukan durian Isu-Kahwin yang memberikan buah yang besar serta lunak seperti durian isu asalnya. Di nursery Sg Lamat saya mendapatkan benih durian isu kahwin. Kemudian saya terus pulang ke Kampung. 

(2)    Sekitar dua minggu lepas saya tidak pulang ke Kampung. Maka pada sepanjang petang Sabtu saya menghabiskan masa untuk merawat segala pokok bunga serta membersih keliling halaman dan rumah saya. Sabtu  malam membawa ke pagi Ahad, hujan tiada henti. Maka saya mengambil keputusan untuk kembali ke Kuching lantaran pada Isnin 2 Feb., saya perlu berangkat ke Kota Kinabalu. Petang Ahad sekitar jam 1600 saya mengundang anak saya untuk membawa cucu sulong saya makan-makan di the Spring Mall. Kebetulan 30 Jan adalah hari Ulang Tahun cucu sulong saya. Sebelum makan saya membawa cucu saya membeli sebuah hadiah untuknya dan selesai makan-makan saya kembali istirehat di rumah di Kuching.

Sifat saya sebegitulah. Kata seorang teman lama di SMSAH: "Hang dari sejak student, bila yang hang tak sebok? Dulu dok sebok dengan pelbagai aktiviti sekolah. So tak heran kot hang tak pernah letih". Saban waktu, secara spontan, saya akan mencari jalan untuk mengisi ruang masa yang ada.

Beauty Is A Wound: 

Cuaca agak terang namun tanda-tanda awan mengarak pekat mulai ketara. Maka biar. pesawat saya dijangka berangkat pada jam 15:00 pada 2 Feb., 2026 ke Kota Kinabalu. Kerana khuathir hujan serta sesak, saya ke Lapangan Terbang tiga jam lebih awal. Dalam tempoh itu saya membaca sebuah novel yang saya beli di Jakarta pada 16 Jan., 2026 berjudul Beauty Is A Wound karya Eka Kurniawan. Novel tersebut telah diterjemahkan ke dalam bahasa Inggeris oleh Annie Tucker. Dikatakan bahawa novel itu telah diterjemahkan dalam 33 bahasa di dunia. 

(2)    Apakah novel ini sebuah novel yang hebat? Hebat atau tidak, ianya tergantung kepada sesiapa membaca. The beauty is by the beholding eyes. Bagi saya, uniknya novel ini adalah pada cara ianya dipersembahkan. Ianya mengisahkan Dewi Ayu, seorang wanita yang telah mati namun bangkit kembali dua puloh satu tahun kemudian. Kisahnya Dewi Ayu ini wujud di era Belanda, British, Jepun dan malah Pasca Kemerdekaan Indonesia yang dicengkam oleh kekacauan Komunisma. Dewi Ayu secocok namanya, adalah gadis cantik menawan. Dewi Ayu yang sebermula diperkosa akhirnya menjual diri di Pasar Daging Jakarta. Kecantikan membawa keberuntungan juga kebuntungan kepada dirinya. Ada waktu dia menjadi isteri rasmi, ada ketika kerana penghkianat dia terpaksa menjual diri demi keselamatannya. Dari sana dari perhubungan dengan segala jantan nan galak, dia melahirkan anak-anak dan malah cucu yang akhirnya juga menjadi pedagang daging segar.  Semua kerana tekanan hidup hasil penindasan segala penjajah dan bahkan serakah pribumi sendiri. Namun akhirnya Dewi Ayu dapat melihat mereka yang khianat kepadanya dibantai oleh tangan-tangan ghaib Komuinsma.

(3)    Cuma, hanya kerana ayu nan mengiorkan, kenapa Eka Kurniawan memperdagang Dewi Ayu jadi sampah yang masyarakat hina? Tidakkah kehinaan pada rasa masyarakat itu ada jiwa yang masih mengasihani? Kenapa sifat prihatin masyarakat harus dijadikan modal karya besar sedang keperihatinan masyarakat jadi tiada erti? 

(4)    Novel ini mengingatkan saya tentang Chow Kit atau lebih tepat Jalan Hj Taib di akhir 1970an dan awal 1980an. Named after Penang-born tin tycoon Loke Chow Kit, it is a lively neighborhood featuring a mix of traditional markets, street food, and heritage charm. The area is also well-known for the iconic 1981 song "Chow Kit Road! Chow Kit Road!" by Malaysian singer Sudirman Arshad.  Pada masa itu, di situ ramai perempuan-perempuan Melayu, India dan Cina terjual sebagai daging-daging segar loyo. Inilah zaman peralihan Malaysia dari ekonomi asas pertanian kepada gerakan perindustrian dan urbanisasi. Kuala Lumpur pada masa itu penuh dengan kediaman-kediaman setinggan. Atas alasan kemiskinan serta terdesak, ramai perempuan-perempuan Melayu khasnya, terpaksa menjual diri mereka. Saya sering ke lorong-lorong gelap ini di masa lalu lantaran saya hanya mampu menyewa hotel-hotel murah di sekitar situ pada masa itu. Dalam tugas-tugasan rasmi saya ke Kuala Lumpur di 1980an, saya sering memilih untuk tinggal di Hotel Malaysia di Chow Kit. Ianya murah serta banyak tempat makan murah-murah di sekelilingnya. Di sebelah malam saya akan berjalan-jalan melihat keliling. Juga pada masa dulu, ramai rakan-rakan akrab saya dari pelbagai pelusuk Malaya menyewa rumah di Kg. baru dan itu sangat dekat dengan Chow Kit. Kami sering bertemu dan berkeliling di kawasan Chow Kit.

(4)    Novel ini dari pengalaman dan pengamatan saya, pada saat ekonomi negara terjejas, kaum pribumi akan sasau. Sebabnya mudah - asas ekonomi mereka yang sempit. Mereka secara mudah terjerat dan terjebak oleh keadaan mendesak. Desa tidak menjadi tempat untuk mereka retreat seandainya ekonomi kota ranap. Hairan - Kampung bukan kubu pelindung untuk Melayu jika terjadi apa-apa ke atas ekonomi mereka atau negara. Ini ibarat ibu-bapa yang melahirkan mereka, bukanlah pelindung pada saat mereka rebah. Kenapa?  Di zaman perang dan kekacauan sosial, biasanya ekonomi kota akan punah dan di situlah pribumi akan terperangkap, buntu dan terjerat. Sesungguhnya, tanda-tanda ini kini kian ketara bilamana gejala-gejala sosial di kalangan Melayu kota kian memuncak. Sering saya kata ini sebagai Post Covid 19 issues.  Hakikatnya inilah kelanjutan dari Asian Financial Crisis 1997 yang membawa kepada kemelut politik jalanan yang tidak berkesudahan sehingga kini biar Bapa Politik tersebut sedang sangat berkuasa. 

Saya mengira, mudah-mudahan saya akan kekal cergas, cerdas dan cakna dalam menyumbang bagi mengurang jika tidak menyekat gejala-gejala Post Covid 19 ini.

Avo-Coco Milk Shake:

Pesawat mendarat di Kota Kinablu pada jam 16:15 petang. Untuk penginapan, kali ini saya memilih sebuah hotel yang lebih dekat dan mudah untuk saya mencari makan.  Ke mana dan di mana saya pergi, kemudahan untuk makan adalah pilihan utama saya. Faktur kecederaan kaki yang belum pulih sepenuhnya juga menjadi pertimbangan utama saya. Pastinya, saya suka berjalan keliling untuk melihat-lihat dan mencari buah fikir. Kali ini saya menghindar

the Promonade kerana di situ agak mahal dan saya sukar mendapatkan Avocado Juice. Bila ke Kota Kinabalu, ada tiga perkara yang saya gemari - Avocado Juice, Latto dan Limau Sabah. Alhamdullilah semua itu dapat saya nikmati.

(2)    Dalam lawatan saya kali ini, saya meminta tuan gerai untuk mengolah Avo-Coco Milk Shake. Mulanya dia kelihatan kebinggungan. Namun bila saya kata: "Harga mudah - kamu kira Avocado + Kelapa Pandan." Baru dia mengangguk-nganguk dan berlalu senyum. Bila dia menghantar minuman itu kemudiannya, saya katakan kepadanya: "Kamu buat macam ini lain kali, setiap jualan yang kamu buat 5% darinya kamu simpan dan itu saya punya".

(3)    Saya terfikir, jika Latto (rumpair) ini jika diadun bersama Susyi Sarawak - Umai, ianya pasti akan dapat menarik minat para pengunjung Jepun, China dan Korea untuk melahap juadah ini bersama minuman-minuman "karbonated atau alchoholic". Ini pasti dapat merubah permintaan ke atas Latto dan akhirnya menjadi rakmat kepada para petani-nelayan kita. Kementerian Perlancungan terkadang hanya sibuk membawa masuk pelancung namun sambutannnya entah ke mana? 

(4)    Dari hotel tempat saya menginap ini, saya dapat menghayati sampling kehidupan sebenar Kota Kinablu - dari yang menjalar di jalanan sehingga yang gemar memekak telingga

di Bar-Bar dan restoran penuh keributan. Segala itu dekat dengan hotel pilihan saya kali ini. Paling bagus, jika saya kepenatan, maka saya boleh saja singgah untuk pijatan kaki yang banyak tersedia di sekitarnya. Semua ini perlu saya hayati lantaran In Shaa Allah my next assignment ada kaitan untuk saya memerah otak bagaimana untuk membuat Urban Renewal Proposal yang mampu merangkum kehidupan jalanan dan kehidupan awangan-awangan ini. Sebuah kediaman ala Darul Hana Kuching telah diperkenalkan kepada saya dan saya diminta untuk mengemukan pragmatic development approach. Kedudukan serta nuansanya cukup menarik jika pengolahannya bukan sekadar pragmatik tetapi harus menuju "syurgawi".

(5)    Alhamdullilah, mesyuarat saya pada 3 Feb., bersama pihak-pihak berkaitan telah memberikan jalan jelas tentang dua Projek yang sedang saya usahakan di Kota Kinablau kini. Biar telah berurusan dalam hal ini sejak 2023, namun tekad dan kesabaran In Shaa Allah keberhasilnnya segera mendatang. Saya berangkat pulang ke Kuching pada jam 16:00 pada 4 Feb., 2026.

Saya bertekad untuk kekal berjalan biar sehingga ke hujung hayat dan akhir Kampung. In Shaa Allah.

Kota Kinabalu International Airport

4 Feb., 2026

1/1/2026 A SEARCH TO GIVING BACK ..

As a private netizen, 2026 is the year I would say I'll begin to giving more of my thought for the State if not for the nation.  I'll exercise more of my free mind in areas which I believe would be of very significant important in our nation building efforts and spirit. Accordingly, those businesses that had been shelved in 2019-2025 are now picking up. I then need to pay greater brain exercising for both Kuching and Kota Kinabalu. Accordingly, in the personal interest matters - in the social concerns and hobbies I would say In Shaa Allah are coming into stream as well. To add on and to keep to optimum times management, the Year 2026 will be my starting point to embark seriously into three personal drives - writing, AI-based Youtube and artistic works - that I had been working on years back. Just that between my corporate professional responsibilities, now I have to be much strategic in dividing my brain power to move into much brain challenging exercise that I need to move on.

(2)    For a start, on the 15 January, 2026 I was bundled into a team to have a retreat in Jakarta. The retreat was suppose to be a very enjoy easy get together among junior and senior corporate staffs. But my mind excitement is all always about "what then issues". To me one minute spent for enjoyment must be compensated by "one minute or more of repayment." What has been built into my psychological soul was "in every matter that we enjoyed, all those were a blessing from Allah. Then once one consumed those blessings, then one must pay back by giving back to the society or ummah. In a simple words, what you consumed while you are  living, such is a debt you must pay for your greater benefit hereafter". To me, to gain better hereafter position, one must not consume all his herein privileges. My basis is - Muhammad SAW chose to be zuhud - honest, humble and keep down to earth - despite he can have all he wanted. Thus my enjoyed excited mind is always being pushed to look on how to pay back what I had consumed.

(3)    At this time, though Jakarta is wet and flooding in some places, the blessing is that, on long weekend, Jakarta is jam-free and most important, the air is fresh and cooling-green (as I see thru my bedroom @ the 14th floor of the Mercure Harmoni). On the 15th January night, I went strolling Jalan Manga Dua, having Kopi Tumbruk and nice durian from Sumatera. One thing I experienced here is the great Arab style of cheating practices adoption. It triggered into my mind - "Jakartans are still trapped in serious living hardship". In Mecca or Madina, once we bought something and there are suppose to be changes, the Arab traders normally asked for "Halal without a change". At least they asked for "Halal No Change." Here, upon arriving definitely I have no smaller denominators. All the Rupiah that I have are in Rp100K or Rp50K notes. Kopi Tubruk cost me Rp20K. Durian was around Rp32K. Even Bajai ride back to the hotel was Rp70K. Once paid with not the exact amount, they just said with lots of innocent drama: "Tiada kembaliannnya Pak - I have no small change". So what do I do? I just paid and deep inside me saying: "Will those rizki be barakah?". 

(4)    On the 16  January, 2026 at around  3:00 Jakarta Time, I woke up and glazed to the far distance into the rain. All over I heard people reciting the Al Quran. Then around 4:30 hours the azan calls echoed the whole Jakarta. This is one thing very different about this City as compared to even Kuala Lumpur. A 15 million packed city population and surely there be thousands of Mosque and smaller Musholla within the Jakarta-sphere makes big different in the intensity in celebrating the foremost Islamic pillars - sholat. My mind and heart quickly came into solitude to be among them - which came in as the piece I wrote into my memory then onto this screen: 

(a)    in the rain, people called onto Him on networks of Azan while in theirselves, i sensed their tight hearts struggling for space

today, their joys suppose to be, for most at least 70-75 per cents of the strolling Jakartans is just another pressure of struggles - a bid for another pieces of life for tomorrow

the Azan, collectively to bring all their hearts netted

but their unity was a mere spiritual-tenet with very less empathy of the nation growth and wellbeing

the rich bulldozing to be richer - turned blind, deaf and dumb to humanity,  pushing the poor to "masa bodoh lu" creeping as cockroaches and rats scavenging what left

(b)    In Time Zone, Jayapura the far east city, is two hours earlier to Jakarta, while Bandar Acheh the west most city is synchronized to be with Jakarta. But Jakarta indeed should be bundled with Kuala Lumpur, Singapore and Bangkok yet, it is an hour lag. In economic and commercial environ, Jakarta is one hour late to the bustling world trade-deals and in fact three hours lagging due to their official and commercial opening hour at 1100 KL-time which is at 1000 hours of their local time. It seem, while Jayapurans are readey for lunch, the Jakartans just finished their breakfast and get to work. What a super time management inefficiency. So by the sway of Allah in Wal Asri - "in time ..." it came across my mind, how could then these "cockroaches" be happy birds whom feed on the early worms and be free and happy?  The webs of Al Quran citation and the Azan - which calls for "let be on the winning path", so my querry - why are Jakartans deaf in mind & hearts - not heeding to the meaning of the calls? Who among them whom will have the courage to switch Jakarta Time to Kl & Bangkok Time Zone and start working at 0800 hours.

(5)    By the way, Allah has many ways to make one to think and analyze to be better or worst to one choice. If one looks at a stupid thing, yet let it be stupid and useless, so be it for one will be sure among those. While one who sees things stupid and useless yet pushes his hands to get those rectify, as Allah promised, sure blessing will come to one and those one's helps. Indeed Allah gives and opens one to choices - thus one's deeds and values is all in and by oneself. Our surroundings are just the forces for us to analyze to come to a choice. 

(6)    I called on some friends I used to work with before the 2019 Covid 19 attacked. Rully and Tutty were my buddies then. To the far right is now my Kota Kinabalu buddy. We had initiated things in Kuching then but due to business slowed down and political instability, only in this 2026 I would say we would gain back our financial and business footing. Nonetheless things had changed so much since 2017 and new thinking had to be infused back into our business planning system. This time, my mind is working on how best to make urban living is a very interesting and secure system for the present and future generation. Indeed Allah destine is never being wrong and I appreciated on what His tests and challenges onto me for such an interesting hard winding ways. I am also glade that I had never give-up. His longing tests had turned my mind and heart into solitaire in almost everything, and that is my biggest asset - now I dedicated myself to my belief and just leave everything to Him to decide on my success and fate. For the urban and properties development planning tasks, I had the following advantages.  First, my studied in Denver, Colorado was really a big asset to me. Studying in an environmentally concern and attached system, those now is a very strategic urban and properties planning and development timely values for me. Secondly, I was a trained Botanist as well as practitioner farmer. Green is my natural soul. Thirdly, I have those artistic mind. I love arts and designs. With artistic mind, definitely I could see the blending of things for a much human soul values needs rather a mere short term face commercial values.

(7) To my shocking, while I was in Jakarta in 2017 working on a 3,000 acres urban planning, after work, Rully, Tutty and myself used to roam many parts of Jakarta to have Kopi Tubruk and all sort of traditional foods even to the very late night at 12;00 - 0200 wee hours. We used to work from 10:00 to 23:00 hours. We then just want to avoid all the jams, crowds, heaty and pollution. At then, I had been none stop criticizing the Jakarta authorities over their neglect of Urban Green Space. So much so, the "cockroaches and rates" swarmed the road side and formed the "nostalgic of Jakarta (even Bangkok, Manila and Kuala Lumpur) living scenes". Now Tutty whom was very eager to take me around to show some of their efforts, reminded me of all my criticism and how at times of Ahok as the Governor of Jakarta then had agreed and being working hard to improve the "Jakarta Mess". I really admire this Tutty, she can still recalled all those passions that I have and she and Rully turned those into their architectural advantages. I would love now to visit their Danau Toba Project which is among their biggest success. Definitely, with my urban planning acquaintance, and their natural living architectural niche, I hope to work on something great for both Kuching and Kota Kinabalu.

(6)    Insertion is how part of the Senayan Stadium area being transformed into public parks and spaces. Earlier this was a mere unorganized open space but now is a very profit making public entities. This is what I mean by urban development within the people spaces. The major setback of this Senayan Project (this excusive part) is the denial to the non-culinary customers. Here all these culinary outlets are more suited to the middle and upper classes.  But those were the authority requirement. Again, as usual Tutty then smiled to me, and said, "Pasti bapak punya kritik yang pedas". For sure she got it then. I told her, lately I turned "communist" minded rather pure capitalist. The full range of the people needs is always my concern.  The needs of the people be they the rich, middle incomes and or the poor must be given equitable chances to gain from the urban development. Such consideration is clearly shown by Allah in how He managed to sustain the best livelihood of the ants, bees and even lots of fauna and flora. Such approach is very much demanded for the multi-cultural societies. To me this enclave of the Project could still be "opened" to all users, if certain physical designs could be facilitated. The "have" needs are exclusivity. The "don't have needs" are more for the "eyes". Both could co-exist in certain sense just that extra creativities would facilitate both needs without denying any. My experienced in Denver, Las Vegas and even Los Angeles were examples of  the democratic ways in making the whole nation to love their country.

(7)    The open to all space of the Senayan Public Park project is also interesting to note. Rightly serve by the MRT services, the place is very accessible to the all walk of lives. At least this part of the Project allowed the poor Jakartans to have a good quality of lives. One should  note, Central Jakarta was the Old Jakarta. Here as compared to the South, East, West and North are crammed by the "poors". Air pollution and traffic congestion are worst over here. Their people Gang (villages) are made up of crowded unorganized hardly called homes living. So much so, they live a very distress lives, and thus are easily politically manipulated. The Ahok case indeed was a mere instigation works of his political oppositions. Works wise, Ahok probably is the only person whom can get things done properly in Jakarta especially for the poor. Except, the biggest problem with Ahok was his crossing into the matter (the Al Nissa Gate) that he was perceived not at all should be in (similar to Nga Kor Meng and Lim Guan Eng cases).

(8)    In my three solid day roaming Jakarta, I was lectured by my special rented car driver that after Ahok, there will be no body better to help Jakartans poor. Baswedan and even now Rano Karno, all are useless. But he was later silent when I mooted the idea that now Ahok is with Megawati PDI, probably that would one day giving him an upper hand as compared to Prabowo and Gibran partnership. Indeed I was having KDM - Kang Deddy Muliadi now the governor of West Java Province  as Indonesia best choice as next President. My belief is based on, Indonesia should emulate China in turning the nation into great economy - keeping Islam as the main choice but with "demokrasi terpimpin" as the key push.

(9)    On the 17th January, everybody on the team went for Manga Dua Mall for shopping. I flied to Jakarta Premium Outlets which is equal to our KLIA Mitsui. Indonesia is well known for their shoes production especially the branded such as Nike, Puma, Addidas, Slazenger etc. Indonesia is also well known for their garments productions. I hope to get some best fit-me designs from the outlets. Well, then, Indonesian designs to me are too trendy and at a glance their taste are more toward the "easy black and far east market". But one thing that I really appreciate about this Jakarta - their emerging good taste on  building landscapes - they began to seriously incorporate the green into their design-built. Their building voids are open and green space not only to facilitate for direction orientation but most profound I would say is to provide sense of place and greater socialization. In this aspect, Jakarta Premium Outlet far outsmart the Mitsui Outlet of KLIA. Just, I don't get anything from them.

(10)    For the late noon tea, I called on my Acheh friend whom living nearby to meet up at Pondok Indah Mall. We had not met since 2017. I love to have some great Betawi Stuffs at one of the outlets there. I scored for Ayam Kampung Goreng Betawi Gurih and Ayam Pop. Sure Avocado juice is always my favorite drink if ever I'm in Indonesia. My friend is James but not pronounce as JAMES. His name must be pronounce as Ja-MES. He was once badly affected by the Acheh-Jakarta struggle that made him drifted to Jakarta. He now operating own Architectural Company and a number of Kopi Tubruk Outlets in Jakarta. 

With him I shared this fighting principle:

Indonesia standing is from Sabang to Marauke, keep it that way. Allah had destined it that way. Never break the Allah's binding piece (Ali Imran 103-105). Acheh is the landing place of Islam for the East, so keep it pure and exemplary. Independent is a stingy western doctrine if we care to think hard. To neutralize all the differences is the very reason Allah creation of all the diversity. Now is for us to think harder and be genuine. Let bring forward a good great leadership within (learnt from the birth of Muhammad in the realm of Jahilliah).

Disasters - war, tsunami, big flood, etc are just His tests, take it with patience and holdfast heart and mind. Neglect, poverty and backwardness must never make us lost our soul to be together for the better. Keep thinking, working and praying for the best. Hidayah on how to keep thing in order, will knock on our doors - if we remain true and pure; now or later, I Shaa Allah.

I promised James that I would like him to introduce me to Muzakir Manaf, the present Acheh governor soonest. Let see what next thereon. Jokingly, I pointed my Sabah buddy as the "Acheh Sumbang" and asking him to look at me as the "Acheh Berjaya" - what it means, time will tell.

Bendara Sukarno-Hatta

Jakarta

15-19 January, 2026

1/10/2025 LEAVING THINGS BEHIND ...

My flight to KL is scheduled to be at 0835 hrs today. Late noon yesterday, I had coffee with my good friend and we talked about what could he do to tape into the prospects of economic boom in Sarawak which I perceive to happen in next year onward. Lots of the Sarawak State mega projects will be completed by 2026-2027. Most important is the much better road connectivity all over. Not only within Sarawak, I began to see a better impacts would also be happening all through Borneo. In 2026-2030 In Shaa Allah connectivity within the Borneo will improve drastically. Unfortunately, my friend sound very pessimistic which placed our discussion into "mere bullshitting". Well as usual, I'm always opportunistic about the Sarawak and Malaysia future despite my reserve on many things over how badly our strengths are being managed both in Kuching and KL. Well sometimes, I love to share something for others to pickup, then I began to see not many could understand me. As such those turned my mind to be "disturbed" and as such I took a "detached" action. 

(2)    I can't sleep well last night. My mind was highly activated now and then. So much so around 0400 hrs I just took my car to the airport to have early Chocolate. I have ample free time then, thus I wrote this article.

(3)    In Shaa Allah in few days time, I'll gain back most of my lost strengths. Alhamdullilah, my consistency, passion and patience over my dreams and struggles in such long period to endure whatever tests and challenges onto me, now I would believe the Al Mighty Allah is

providing me with the opening that I had been long praying for me to hit on. In solitaire ecosystem, I learnt to be more focus and rebuild my lost past. In Shaa Allah this time, my mind will be very calculative on many things which in the past had trapped me into lots unnecessary deviation and blockage of my ambition fast advancement. Most probably, In Shaa Allah by December I'll start travelling to few places that I had planned since 2018. My today trip to KL is to start off my preparation to really get into those things that I had been thinking of doing. I need to hold my travelling and most of my work plans to end of this year in view of lots of circumstances that really had placed me in great setback over the past 6-7 years. 

(4)    This KL trip earlier on was intended to take 2-3 days. I thought of after getting my official things done, I'll meetup with few friends whom had been long asking to have some treats. By the way, now on I had decided to be extra cautious, so much so, I'm going to cut off lots of my socializing activities. The year 2022 to around this time, I had learnt, lots of my kindness and sacrificed had been taken for granted and when I was rock bottom hit, even my most closest few left me without a note. At this age and due to lot of health issues affecting me since early 2022, now I decided to have much more time with myself. I had been mistreating myself over others, and thus enough is enough. 

(4)    To lots of friends and "friends", a big thanks and thanks you for all your treats. If I had served your purposes, I'm glade and may you be blessed. If not, now is for me to serve my own purposes of existence.

KLIA

31 Oct., 2025

2/9/2025 CRYSTALIZING MY NEXT STEPS .....

KEPAYAHAN YANG SAYA LALUI DAN PERHATIKAN:

Saya mulai melangkah kaki ke sekolah pada 1967 di Sg Putin, Primary School di Kampung Sg Putin, Sadong Jaya, Simunjan (pada masa itu). Kini Sadong Jaya telah dirangkumkan ke daerah Asajaya, Samarahan. Biarpun sekolah ini adalah sekolah kampung, namun bahasa pengantarnya adalah bahasa Inggeris. Jika tidak silap, kami diajar 5-7 matapelajaran, hanya satu sahaja diajar dalam bukan Inggeris iaitu Bahasa Melayu. Pada masa itu, hanya kedapatan satu kelas untuk setiap Darjah. Pada 1968 saya bertukar sekolah ke Sekolah Rendah Abang Man, Simunjan. Di Abang Man, terdapat dua kelas bagi setiap Darjah.

(2)    Pada 1973 saya melanjutkan pelajaran ke Tingkatan 1-3 di SMR Kuala Krai, SMR KK, Kelantan, selepas melalui ujian saringan Common Entrance Examination, CEE. SMR KK adalah satu-satunya sekolah aliran Melayu yang ada di Jajahan tersebut pada masa itu. Sekolah Yahya Petra, SYP yang terletak lebih hampir ke pekan Kuala Krai menyajikan pendidikan aliran Inggeris. Saya sempat belajar sekitar dua bulan di SYP, namun kerana saya tidak dapat pickup dengan style English sebahagian guru-guru di situ, akhirnya saya minta kembali saja ke Sarawak. Saya juga membangkitkan kepada pihak Yayasan Sarawak, YS yang menghantar dan membiayai pembelajaran saya di sana bahawa mulanya kami dijanjikan untuk bersekolah di aliran Melayu namun pada masa itu kami ditempatkan di sekolah aliran Inggeris yang their bloody English I couldn't understand or follow. Makanya dengan itu saya dan 4 lagi rakan-rakan dari Sarawak dipindahkan ke SMR KK. Para pelajar dari pedalaman UK = Ulu Kelantan kebanyakan bersekolah di sekolah tersebut. Bagi satu darjah terdapat tujuh kelas ie dari A-G. SMR KK adalah titik mula bagi banyak hal dalam kehidupan saya. Setiap kelas, ada 30-35 murid. Maka setiap darjah ada 210 - 245 orang murid. Demografi mereka sangat diverse. Sebilangan mereka tidakpun tahu menulis, apa lagi dapat menguasai Math dan Sains. 

(3)    SMR KK mendedahkan saya kepada pertama untuk mengerti tentang payah dan kemiskinan. Kehidupan saya di Sarawak, kami tidaklah miskin cuma susah. Susah lantaran banyak perkara belum ada pada sebuah negeri yang hanya merdeka pada 1963. Biarpun Malaya merdeka pada 1957 iaitu enam tahun lebih awal dari Sarawak, namun kemiskinan dan kepayahan di UK = Ulu Kelantan jauh lebih sulit, biarpun dari segi prasarana dan ekonomi mereka kelihatan jauh lebih baik dari Sarawak. Sebabnya, Kelantan dan Malaya mempunyai bilangan penduduk yang jauh lebih besar dari Sarawak. Penjarahan British terhadap ekonomi dan penyisihan kaum di Malaya juga jauh lebih kejam berbanding Brooke di Sarawak. Politik Malaya pada masa itupun sudah berpihak-pihak. Saya mulai melihat permainan politik di UK = Ulu Kelantan. Paling nyata, UK juga mulai mendidik saya tentang kebangsaan dan keagamaan- racialism and religsm. 

(4)    Dengan keputusan SRP yang cemerlang, saya menempah kerusi ke SMSAH dan Matrikulasi UKM, Jitra, Kedah pada 1976-79. SMSAH adalah antara sembilan sekolah berasrama penuh pelopor di Malaya pada masa itu.  SMSAH memperkenalkan kepada saya apa yang saya sebut sebagai regionalism = assabiyah kenegerian, serta menumbuhkan sikap detached kepada saya. Prihal Zara Qarina di Tawau Sabah sangat ketara di SMSAH pada masa itu, dan ini menjadi parah akibat sikap regionalism. Lantaran itu, ianya membentuk sikap detached kepada diri saya. 

(5)  Psychological research has increasingly focused on understanding the concept of detached character, which is characterized by an interpersonal avoidance and indifference to the emotions of others. The concept of detached character was initially introduced by Browlby in 1969. He argued that a person with a detached character was indifferent to interpersonal relationships and would withdraw from social contact. Recent research has expanded upon Bowlby’s initial definition of detached character and has identified it as a personality trait rather than a coping mechanism. Studies have shown that individuals with this trait tend to be more emotionally detached than others, experience lower levels of social connectedness, and have difficulty forming close relationships. They also tend to be more self-focused, have difficulty expressing their feelings, and may be more prone to depression and anxiety (Kazemi, 2013).

(6)    Para (5) adalah tafsiran terhadap sikap detached secara akademik. Saya melihat diri saya sebagai seseorang yang mudah mengambil sikap detached. Namun sikap detached saya lebih cenderung sebagai suatu sikap coping trait. Dalam bahasa mudahnya, detached the coping traits adalah suatu sikap menghidar atau menjauh bilamana sesuatu perkara itu difikir atau yakini tidak sesuai dengan cita rasa atau alam fikiran kita. Makanya saya banyak bersikap loner iaitu lebih gemar menyendiri dari sibuk-sibuk terjun ke kancah yang boleh mengugat jalan fikir malah tindakan saya. Saya cukup peka membaca penerimaan keliling ke atas keberadaan apa lagi keperluan diri saya. Makanya, saya dalam banyak hal, saya mengambil sikap - you trust me, I'll be there, you don't trust me, saya akan berlalu pergi. Makanya saya lebih gemar menjadi loner untuk terus memerhati, berfikir dan mengatur apa yang saya perlu lakukan. Focus saya adalah what should my presence be as Allah wanted me to be wherever I am.

IMPIAN HIDUP SAYA :

Saya ke Kota Bharu kali ini atas beberapa urusan penting. Pertamanya untuk menunaikan hajat seorang kenalan yang telah berjasa dalam memberikan buah fikir tentang rekabentuk Masjid Darul Hana, Kuching. Pada 2009, saya telah menyatakan keinginan saya untuk bersara awal kepada Taib Mahmud, KM Sarawak pada masa itu. Sebelum saya bersara, saya ingin melaksanakan my last project for our people. Saya mengesyorkan agar Kerajaan Negeri mengambil langkah tegas bagi mengatasi segala gejala sosial hasil dari dwikotomi demografi dan sosio-ekonomi masyarakat di dua belah tebingan Sg Sarawak. Saya melihat penempatan dari Siol

Kandis ke Bintawa di Kuching Utara akan menjadi masalah besar jika tidak ditangani segera. Taib telah bersetuju untuk saya memulakan langkah tersebut. Maka saya melihat pembinaan Masjid Darul Hana yang unique and identic sebagai asas penting bagi mendapatkan persetujuan rakyat setempat bagi merombak struktur dan nuansa 12 (?) penempatan di situ. Kini seluruhnya sedang dibangun sebagai Projek Darul Hana mengambil sempena nama Kerajaan Asal Sarawak di zaman pemerintahan kesultanan Brunei dahulu sebelum kedatangan Brooke.

(2)    Cita-cita hidup saya komplek dan tidak memihak kepada kepentingan pribadi. Saya tidak memimpikan jawatan. Saya juga kurang peduli prihal pendapatan @ kemewahan yang perlu saya perolehi. Worldly self personal interest bukan matlamat hidup saya. Secara fizik ada tiga hal yang ingin saya capai. Pertama, saya ingin membina Masjid. Alhamdullilah, Masjid Darul Hana telah terbangun secara unique dan berfungsian identic kepada mayarakat di Tebing Utara Sg Sarawak. Kedua saya ingin membina Universiti. Cita-cita ini hampir-hampir terjadi pada 2022. Namun pada Feb., 2022 usaha saya untuk membantu memperkasa dan menjulang hebat Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) Bangi telah "disailang" oleh mereka yang lapar tanpa moral. Projek yang saya anggar bernilai sekitar RM1.40 billion dan mampu menjana sekitar RM 400.00 - 600.00 juta/ tahun pulangan kepada UKM. Projek ini akan dibiayai penuh melalui pelaburan swasta. Lantaran lapar dan tidak bermoral, Projek ini telah terpinggir sehingga kini. Namun saya tidak pernah berputus asa, maka pada 2025 ini saya hampir-hampir dapat mengusahakan UKM Offshore Campus di Kuching. Ianya dicadang sebagai Kampus Antarabangsa UKM di luar dari Bangi. Cuma pada saat ianya dalam proses incubation and crystallization, berlaku pergolakkan di UKM sehingga ianya perlu ditangguhkan untuk sementara waktu. Nan pasti saya tidak akan berhenti sehingga saya berjaya membangun sebuah Universiti Virtual bertaraf dunia di mana-mana di negara ini. Atas prospek serantau serta "keanihan politik negara", Kuching, Sarawak dan Kota Kinabalu, Sabah menjadi sorotan penting saya.

(3)    Ketiga saya juga bercita-cita untuk membangun hospital. Kehadiran saya ke Kota Bharu kali ini, sambil menyelam minum air adalah untuk organise para pengamal perubatan di Kota Bharu bagi membentuk satu kumpulan pakar untuk operational Islamic Specialist Hospital yang sedang saya usahakan di Kuching dan Kota Kinabalu. 

(4)    Berkaitan dengan artikel  siri 1/9/2025  BAGAIMANA AL QURAN BERKERJA? terdahulu, saya In Shaa Allah akan memulakan usaha saya dalam mengenggahkan konsep a Research-based Education bermula dari Tadika sehinggalah ke Sekolah Menengah. Di negara ini, kita sedang melaksanakan apa yang dinamakan Research Universities, maka bagi menyemarak usaha tersebut, maka Research-based Education perlu dilakukan sedari rebung. The concept of the research university first arose in early 19th-century in Prussia, Germany, where Wilhelm von Humbolt championed his vision of Einheit von Lehre und Forschung (the unity of teaching and research), as a means of producing an education that focused on the main areas of knowledge, including the natural sciences, social sciences, and humanities, rather than on the previous goals of the university education, which was to develop an understanding of truth, beauty, and goodness. A research university or a research-intensive university is a university that is  committed to research as a central part of its mission. They are "the key 

sites of knowledge production", along with "intergenerational knowledge transfer and the certification of new knowledge" through the awarding of doctoral degrees, and continue to be "the very center of scientific productivity". They can be public or private, and often have well-known brand names. Undergraduate courses at many research universities are often academic rather than vocational and may not prepare students for particular careers, but many employers value degrees from research universities because they teach fundamental life skills such as critical thinking. Globally, research universities are overwhelmingly public institutions, while some countries like the United States and Japan also have well-known private research institutions.Roger L. Geiger, "the leading historian of the American research university," has argued that "the model for the American research university was established by five of the nine colonial colleges chartered before the American Revolution (Harvard, Yale, Penssylvania, Princeton and Columbia); five state universities (Michigan. Wisconsin, Minnesota, Illinois and California); and five private institutions conceived from their inception as research universities (MIT, Cornel, John Hopkins, Stanford and Chicago).

(5)    Semua ini dan atas keyakinan saya bahawa cara Allah mencipta serta mengurus alam cakrawala ini adalah lewat kuasa elektromagnetik, maka akhirnya saya ingin merumus bagaimana Masjid, Universiti dan Hospital akhirnya dapat dirangkai lewat teknologi digital yang meluas dan menyeluruh bagi mencipta kehidupan duniawi yang syurgawi. Jangan ditanya saya apa maksudnya ini, lantaran saya masih perlu banyak diam, merenung, berfikir dan terus berjalan sendiri. Saya mengambil iktibar bagaimana Muhammad menemukan Islam dengan menghayat bagaimana masyarakat Quraish Jahilliah perlu diurus dan dihenyak untuk menjadikan kita akhirnya mendapat rahmatnya sama. Muhammad khalwat di Hira, pada zaman Jawa kuno diamalkan dalam konsep bertapa. Saya juga bertapa bilamana saya tercabar hebat dan sedang mencari jalan pemikiran yang besar. Bertapa = khalwat, berdiam diri focus menyerah kepada Allah dalam mencari jalan keluar atas apa yang sedang berlaku ke atas diri apa lagi Ummah ini. Allahuaalm Bisawab.

6-7 Sept., 2025

Kota Bharu-KL-Kuching

1/5/2024 Berbaktilah sehingga nafas terakhir...

Pada sekitar Mei, 2017 iaitu tujuh tahun dahulu, saya mengajak  sekumpulan kawan-kawan untuk berkampung di Gunung Jerai, Gurun, Kedah. Tujuannya adalah untuk brainstorming bagi mengerakkan suatu usaha social entrepreneurship yang pada masa itu saya kira berupa penternakan lembu dan kambing secara bersepadu di kawasan persawahan. Model yang ingin saya utarakan adalah sepertinya perusahaan Pak Suharto di Lembah Hijau, Solo, Indonesia. Sekitar 20 orang dengan pasangan masing-masing setuju hadir. Semua sudah diatur namun pada saat akhir saya menghadapi suatu masalah pribadi yang berat maka saya memutuskan tidak hadir. Maka perkampungan menjadi perkumpulan biasa-biasa sekadar perkumpulan teman-teman dengan segala keriuhan. Itu tujuh tahun dahulu, kecuali saya, mereka semua masih dala, perkhidmatan, maka saran saya tidaklah terlalu penting atau mendapat tangkapan hebat mereka.

(2) Saran yang ingin saya utarakan, modelnya adalah Tumpansari - Intigrasi Lembu dan Padi di mana lembu-lembu diternak secara fedlot sepenuhnya. Kandang lembu akan dibuat sedemikian rupa agar segala kumbahan lembu seperti tinjar - najis dan kencing - akan diolah untuk menjadi baja bagi persawahan sekitarnya. Dengan cara ini, bukan sahaja bahan kumbahan dapat diurus dengan baik, malah keperluan baja padi juga dapat disediakan secara organik. Padi yang dihasilkan pula mensasar bagi penghasilan beras bermutu tinggi. Kemudian selepas penuaian, batang-batang padi akan dikumpul dan diolah untuk menjadi makanan lembu. Jadi kitaran pengunaan sumber adalah lengkap dan saling melengkapi. Dalam masa yang sama bagi mewujudkan suasana nyaman bagi pekerja, pelawat malah ternakan, seluruh nuansa Projek perlu dibangun sebagai Projek Agro-Wisata, agro-tourism - lengkap dengan taman buah-buahan, sayuran, herba serta ternakan ungas-ungas berkaitan serta restoran. Semuanya harus bersifat komersil.

(3) Saya mengharapkan Projek seperti ini akhirnya dapat diteladani oleh agensi-agensi Kerajaan dan bahkan masyarakat umumnya dalam mengoptima tanah mereka serta mampu mengatasi masalah kekurangan bekalan makanan dan membuka peluang pekerjaan yang lebih luas serta kreativiti rakyat. In Shaa Allah. 

(4) Pada March, 2024 saya kembali mengusulkan untuk sekali lagi berkampung dan teman-teman memilih di Sg Petani, Kedah untuk tujuan yang sama. Teman-teman memutuskan untuk mengadakan perkampungan tersebut pada 12 Mei., 2024 sesuai dengan  jadual kelapangan saya. Alhamdullillah kali ini saya dapat hadir, dan hadir khusus untuk brainstorming ini. Sejak saya mengusulkan rencana ini dua bulan lepas, teman-teman kedengaran cukup ghairah. Beda kali ini, semua sudah bersara dari perkhidmatan masing-masing. Kebanyakan sudah bersara sekitar 4-6 tahun. Saya sendiri telah meninggalkan perkhidmatan rasmi saya sekitar 14 tahun. Namun saya masih terus bekerja di bidang koprat dan juga Social Entrepreneurship sedang kebanyakan teman-teman hanya berkeliling bertandang atau berambeh kata Melayu Sarawak ke rumah anak-anak bergembira dengan anak cucu bahkan cicit. Kegiatan sebegitu bagus, namun bagi saya adalah sangat merugikan lantaran usia-usia sepertinya kami, dengan pengalaman, perhubungan, kemahiran serta kekukuhan kewangan - saya berkira semua harus terus berbakti kepada masyarakat sehingga sudah sama sekali tidak mampu.

(5) Dua prinsip penting saya minta teman-teman fikirkan. Semasa kita berkhidmat, kita dibayar upah. Apapun yang kita kerjakan kita diupah. Biar kita melakukan lebih dari teman-teman yang lain, namun akhirnya kita tetap mendapat imbuhan berupa kenaikan gaji, pangkat dan atau gelaran. Maka, di mana pahala bekalan akhirat kita? Ada memang ada, namun saya kira belumlah cukup lumayan. Maka jika kita terus rela dan redha berbakti dengan tanpa gaji dan juga imbuhan pangkat dan atau gelaraan, tidakkah amalan kita akan  membuahkan lebih pahala. Kedua, dengan terus aktif dan bahkan bekerja keras, seluruh tubuh badan kita akan aktif. Badan aktif pasti akan memberikan cabaran kepada otak kita. Akhirnya dengan otak yang terus aktif, pastinya otak akan terus mengaktifkan segala sistem pada badan kita, dan In Shaa Allah kita terus cergas, cerdas dan sihaat walafiat. Saya punya benchmark adalah Mahathir, dia terus aktif berfikir dan bekerja dan saya berdoa dia akan kekal ke 125 tahun sepertinya Musa AS. In Shaa Allah.

(6) Ada peristiwa cukup nostalgik dalam perkampungan kali ini.  Pertama, pada 1980 kami membentuk kumpulan pengasas ROTU - Reserve Officer Training Unit sepertinya ROTC di Amerika. Inilah sisipan foto kami yang memenuhi ruang Utusan Malaysia semasa mereka membuat liputan latihan yang kami jalani. Foto ini juga merupakan Sisipan Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah RTM pada tahun tersebut. Tiga kadet di depan sekali adalah Owi TC kiri sekali, Zaharin Nasution dan saya di kanan sekali. Semasa di Uni saya tidak gondrongan. Tidak pernah gondrongan. Saya kira berat badan saya cuma sekitar 60 Kg pada masa itu ie 12 Kg kurang dari berat ideal saya. Foto ini diambil semasa kami mengadakan latihan ketenteraan berkait dengan Appreciation dan Orders atau dalam bahasa pengurusan kini adalah Situational Analysist and Plan of Action Presentation. Sesungguhnya, jika bekas-bekas ahli ROTU memasuki bidang kerjaya apapun, berbekalkan kemahiran dalam Appreciation and Orders, sesungguhnya strategic thinking juga planning and management bukanlah sesuatu yang terlalu sukar. Kami saban cuti Semester selama empat tahun pasti dilatih bertubi-tubi tentang Appreciataion and Orders kerana etiap pergeraakan ketenteraan dalam aman apa lagi dalam kegawatan mesti didahului dengan Appreciation and Orders.

(7) Pada malam 12 Mei., 2024 kebetulan ketiga-tiga kami hadir bersama. Rakan-rakan menyuruh kami melakunkan semula posing kami pada 1980. Sejak 2021 saya tidak men gunting rambut saya. Saya membiarkan rambut saya tanpa dandanan kemas kerana saya ingin ianya ikal seperti Einstein. Saya agak jemu sering dipadankan dengan A Samad Said, Eman Manan dan bahkan Lim Swee King (Pensyarah UPM dari Kelantan). Berat badan saya ketika ini telah kembali pulih ke 72 Kg berbanding 65 Kg sejak Okt., 2022. Owi TC sudah berkaki tiga. Zaharin pula telah menjalani pembuangan Pankarias pada 2018 dan sekarang cukup berwaspada dalam soal makanan dan pergerakkan. Sehingga kini, sebanyak empat  oraang dari kumpulan pengasas ROTU UKM telah kembali kerahmatullah. dari sekitar 120 orang semasa awal rekrut, cuma sekitar 50 orang berakhir dengan tauliah sebagai Pegawai Muda ATM. 

(8) Pada 13 Mei, saya dan Hamid Pedu bersama rakannya pergi meninjau Padang Ragut Jabatan Veterina di Sik ie sekitar satu jam perjalanan dari Sungai Petani. Sebelumnya saya ke Seberang Jaya untuk menikmati Gulai Batang Pisang, olahan Kak Pah, isteri Hamid Pedu. Nampaknya Padang Ragut tersebut sangat sesuai, cuma kemungkinan menghadapi masalah bekalan air. Penternakan lembu feedlot memerlukan air yang banyak. Sepatutnya kami perlu ke Baling untuk meninjau satu lagi Padang Ragut Vet di sana. Kami keletihan lalu pulang lewat Jeniang dan singgah makan Cendol Durian-Pulut Special Jeniang. Saya sudah agak biasa dengan pekan Jeniang kerana pada Feb - Okt., 2022 saya

sering ulang alik ke Jeniang untuk santai dan pembelian input pertanian semasa membangunkan perkebunan di Pokok Tai, Yan (?). Saya tidaklah mengambil berat prihal Cendol Special Jeniang ini terdahulunya, namun kini baru saya tahu akan maksud "special"nya cendol tersebut. Cendol untuk penghilang dahaga, Mee Rebus cukup nyaman untuk menghilang lapar. 

(9) Walau apapun, perjalanan Projek kami masih panjang. Saya tidak mahu buru-buru. Mungkin 2-3 tahun baru terzahirnya Projek ini. Pada masa ini saya syorkan Projek ini dinamakan Projek Al Baqarah dengan Cendol Special Jeniang sebagai hastaqnya. In Shaa Allah pada Sept., 2024 depan kami  akan berhimpun kembali di Jirta Kedah pula. 

(10) Kepada semua teman-teman, semoga panjang umur dan Allah limpahi dengan kecergasan dan kecerdasan yang utuh semoga kita terus berjuang untuk warisan kepada anak cucu cicit dan Negara ini.

Terasi, Sadong Jaya

16 Mei, 2024