1/11/2026 SEHELAI SAPUTANGAN

Kain Perca:

Ingatanku kepada ibu tidak akan pernah melayang, selagi sehelai perca saputangan ada dalam saku seluarku. Sejak aku mulai melangkah ke sekolah pada 1967, sehingga kini, kain perca tidak pernah tidak ada dalam saku celanaku. Sebermulanya, embah nenekku adalah pemulanya. Sewaktu-waktu kanak-kanak, pada tahun-tahun 1960an, pilek selsema sering menyerang aku. Bukan hanya aku, bahkan kebanyakan rakan-rakan aku juga sebegitu. Pada waktu itu, pada saat pilek, untuk mengelap hingus, jalan paling mudah adalah dengan mengelap di lengan atau hujung baju. Kerana baju sekolah adalah dari kain putih, maka ketara di lengan atau hujung baju  mereka akan ada bekas-bekas hingus kering; menjadi hanyir bila berbaur keringat menyimbah semasa bermain bersama sebelum juga selepas waktu sekolah. Embah dan emak tidak sekali-kali mahu aku berperilaku sebagai yang lainnya. Jorok kata mereka. Bapa biar kelihatan seperti tidak peduli, namun pada saat aku hendak melangkah keluar untuk ke sekolah, dia pasti mengingatkan: "Apa kain perca kamu sudah kamu bersihkan. Ada kamu sakukan?"

(2)  Sewaktu-waktu keanak-anakanku, pengertian makanan penuh berginzi khasiat tidak pernah aku dengar. Di saat musim tengkujuh, pilek pasti menyerang anak-anak waktu itu. Jika di musim kering pula, akibat jalan berdebu serta sering belusukan di semak-semak belukar, akibat debu-debu tanah dan tumbuh-tumbuhan juga boleh mengakibatkan pilek. Sebetulnya, kebersihan diri, tidur malam sering tidak pakai baju, hanya berbungkus kain pelekat serta tiada pengetahuan tentang Vitamin C adalah punca sering kedatangan pilek di kalangan kanak-kanak di waktu itu. Maka kain perca adalah sebahagian budaya yang embah, ibu dan ayah telah wariskan kepadaku sepanjang umur hidupku. Mungkin jika aku ingat, esok-esok pada saat aku berpulang kekal, cucu-cucuku akan menyelitkan kain percaku di celah-celah kapanku.

(3)    15 Jun., 2023 atas gerak hati bahawa aku tidak akan menemukan lagi satu sosok yang istimewa dalam hidupku, pada pertemuan "terakhir" kami waktu itu, aku lontarkan kain percaku agar dia simpan baik-baik semahunya. Dia, bagiku sudah berpunya tangan-tangan embah dan ibuku. Setelah itu, kami benar-benar sudah tidak ketemu apa berikirim berita seperti selalunya. Apakah kain percaku tetap utuh atau sudah di pojok tidak berguna, aku tidak pasti dan malah tidak mahu peduli. Saat ini aku teringat akan kain perca itu, hanya kerana hari ini aku terlupa untuk membawa kain perca di celanaku. Kenapa? Lewat waktu, lewat hari-hari aku yang sudah kian banyak tidak peduli, aku sudah menjadi pelupa. 

Selendang Putih:

Pada 2005, aku merantau ke Medan tujuan ke Palembang. Hajat di hati, aku ingin menelusuri Sg Musi, katanya, Abdullah, moyangku adalah asalnya dari perkampungan di Sg. Musi tersebut. Biarpun aku tidak pasti di mana tapak jejak-jejak kakinya, setidak-tidak esok-esok akan aku ceritakan tentang indahnya perkampungan moyangku dan asal usul mereka kepada anak cucuku. Sg Musi dan Sg Sadong, morfologinya serupa. Makanya tidak heran jika Manan, datukku, memilih membuka tanah di Sadong dalam pelariannya dari getir penjajahan Belanda. Sg Musi mengalir di dataran lanar yang subur dan sangat luas. Airnya keruh menguning. Ianya adalah nadi dalam kehidupan sehari-harian masyarakat penghuninya. 

(2)    Biar aku tidak kesampaian menjejak kaki ke kampung moyangku, namun setidak-tidak aku merasa besar hati lantaran darah ini di dalam tubuh ini adalah dari rumpun Parameswara pengasas Temasik dan Melaka. Bukan soal darjat keturunan yang ingin aku warisi kepada anak cucu cicit piutku, tetapi jiwa tidak tunduk kepada penghambaan adalah tunjang yang perlu aku pasakkan ke dalam jiwa dan kepala batu mereka. Kapanpun dan di manapun, harkat martabat bangsa dan agama mesti mereka gengam tanpa secebis tolak ansur.

(3)    Di Medan, aku cuba mengenali sosok Hamka yang pernah mengajar aku tentang kewajibanku untuk kekal manut taat kepada kedua orang tuaku dalam satu kuliah di sekolahku pada 1976. Di Medan aku menemui karya besar Hamka yang sudah difilemkan: Tengelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck. Karya beliau ini, telah difitnah sebagai suatu ciplak dari Magdelena sebuah novel Belanda karya...... Aku sepertinya aku yang tidak menerima apa seadanya, pada 2008, aku ke Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka di Kuala Lumpur, lalu ke Perpustakaan Negara juga di Kuala Lumpur lalu kemudian ke Solo dan Jakarta bagi tujuan menjejaki Magdelena. Aku tidak menemukan buku tersebut. Cuma bukan kerana nasib bahkan kebetulan, dalam misi pencarian keduaku pada Jun 2009, telah menghantar aku ke Taman Ismail Marzuki, Jakarta. Mulanya aku ingin mengenali sosok seniman Ismail Marzuki seorang sastrawan besar Indonesia, di sana aku menjumpai pengusaha Toko Buku Langka. Di Toko beliau aku telah menghabiskan sekitar dua hari untuk menyelongkari timbunan khazanah buku-buku langkanya. Dalam hapak debu-debu buku-buku usang, pada hari kedua, dalam hidungku mulai berair dan tersumbat, kain percaku juga sudah basah lekit, tanpa sengaja Magdelena mengelunsur jatuh ke kakiku. Rasa besar hatiku, ibarat mendapat  sebungkah emas mengelinding dari pergunungan saat mataku terpaku pada Magdelena di kakiku. Paling aku bahagia, Magdelena aku dapatkan tanpa harga. Pengusaha toko menghadiahkan novel itu buat simpananku lantaran sekian lama, gigih serta mahlnya  aku berkelana menelusuri novel tersebut.

(4)    Dalam Karamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck, dua hati yang polos terjebak dalam asmara bening suci anak kampung. Adat, darjat, serta godaan keliling menjadikan kedua hati itu terpisah. Cuma salendang putih Hayati bekalkan kepada Zainudin sebagai azimat untuk dia membina diri, berpergi ke Makasar kemudian menempah kejayaan besar di Batavia, namun cinta mereka hancur trajis lantaran adat, darjat serta pengaruh keliling. Hakikatnya, novel ini adalah kisah putus cinta Hamka terhadap gadis Padang Panjang, Medan. Di dalam jiwa Hamka, novel tersebut adalah gaya pemberontakkan beliau terhadap: "Biar mati anak, jangan mati adat". Atas kekecewaan beliau, Hamka kemudian hijerah ke Mekah dan dari sana beliau meneruskan pembelajarannya serta menjadi karyawan yang cukup berjaya nila-nilai kesusasteraan dan keIslamannya. Cinta Di Lembayung Kaabah adalah novel terbaiknya selanjutnya. 

(5)    Bait-bait yang kukira cukup mengesankan dari filem ini: "............. In Shaa Allah bersambung pelan-perlahan-lahan.

2/10/2026 PEREMAJAAN POLITIK MELAYU SARAWAK

LANGKAH STRATEGIS BIJAK:

Abang Johari, Premier Sarawak membayangkan bahawa dia akan mengundur diri dari politik Sarawak dalam waktu tidak berapa lama lagi. Bila? Telahan terdekat saya adalah pada separuh penggal PRN 13 iaitu sekitar tahun 2028-2029. PRN 14 Sarawak adalah pada 2031. Langkah Abang Johari untuk mengundur diri sekitar 2028-29 adalah sangat strategik serta sangat wajar. Ini bukan soal umur atau lama perkhidmatan. Ini tertumpu kepada langkah strategik yang wajar. Dalam lumba relay, pelumba seterusnya harus boleh memecut lebih laju dari yang sebelumnya. Politik negara sejak 2003 sehingga kini semua berteras serahan terpaksa. Mahathir serah kepada Abdullah secara terpaksa. Abdullah serah kepada Najib juga secara terpaksa. Kemudian Najib digugurkan secara paksa. Maka wujud politik kegilaan kuasa sehingga kini. Sarawak tidak boleh dan jangan sesekali mengikut jejak langkah Malaya ini.

(2) Abang Johari telah melalui dua kepemimpinan Ketua Menteri; bersama Taib Mahmud selama 33 tahun (1981-2014), kemudian Adenan Satem selama tiga tahun (2014-2017). Secara keseluruhan tempoh 37 tahun berada di bawah dua mentor yang legend adalah satu proses didikan kematangan yang cukup hebat buat Abang Johari. Pada zaman Taib, gelora politik Sarawak cukup berbeza dengan di zaman Adenan. Menjelang akhir 1990an, Taib telah diserang cukup hebat. Samada serangan itu bermotif politik atau isu sebenar, sejarah (masa) akan membuktikannya. Namun kesepakatan kukuh dalam Kabinet Taib dan Adenan, Sarawak dapat melalui segala kegetiran tersebut secara baik. Lebih baik, ianya memberikan Abang Johari insight yang lebih luas dan mendalam dalam soal politik dan pembangunan Sarawak dan negara amnya.

(3)  Bersama Abang Johari, juga telah ada mereka yang cukup terdedah kepada cara pentadbiran Taib, Adenan dan Abang Johari sendiri. Bagi saya, mereka ini sudah cukup dewasa. Masa, pengalaman serta pengaruh sudah mereka miliki baik. Ambil contoh di dalam PBB iaitu komponen Bumiputera, Tangah Ali Hassan umpamanya. Dia pernah menjadi orang kanan Taib, Adenan dan malah Abang Johari sendiri. Dengan usia Tengah sudah menjangkau menghampiri 70, maka tiba masanya untuk dia memegang kemudi Perahu Lumba Sarawak.  Tanggah perlu diberi peluang yang banyak dan meluas untuk membina pelapis berwibawa seterusnya. SAW Allah berikan sekurang-kurang 20 tahun untuk membina kerabat dan penganti beliau yang berwibawa. Pemimpin tidak wujud secara automatik. Pemimpin lahir dari proses dan keadaan yang tertentu dan panjang.

PENYUSUNAN WARISAN KUASA:

Di zaman Taib terutama di tahun 1990an, beliau secara jelas menyusun pewarisan kuasa Sarawak kepada Adenan Satem, Affendi Nawawi serta Abang Johari. Cuma mungkin akibat gelojoh, perkara tersebut telah sedikit mengugat peralihan kuasa secara cepat dan teratur. Pada 2002 bila saya mengadap Taib secara persendirian sebelum saya mengambilalih jawatan pengurusan PELITA, GLC negeri, kami ada berbincang tentang "kegagaluan" mengenai perkara ini. Saya mengambil iktibar darinya, dari saya menunjukkan secara jelas siapa harus mengambilalih dari kedudukan saya kemudiannya, saya memilih untuk membentuk Team Work dan membina cara dan disiplin kerja yang terbaik untuk menunaikan amanah kepada rakyat. Maka semasa saya menjawat Pengurus Besar dan CEO GLC berkenaan, saya mengenepikan Jawatan Timbalan Pengurus Besar. Tekanan saya adalah lebih kepada struktur organisasi yang bersifat Thin & Lean, cara dan KPI kerja yang sistematik serta bersifat kuantitatif. 

(2)    Selama berkhidmat dalam kerajaan serta minat politik yang ada pada saya, saya turut memerhatikan cara Mahathir cuba menyusun peralihan dan pewarisan kuasanya. Kedua-dua Mahathir dan Taib agak tergelincir dari cara SAW. SAW tidak menunjukkan secara tepat akan siapa pewarisnya. Dia membimbing mereka sehingga di antara mereka berpunya rasa saling hormat di antara satu sama lain dan dari situ mereka memilih dan berbai'ah terhadap yang terbaik di antara mereka. 

PENGUNDURAN AHLI POLTIK:

Saya tidak perlu dan tidak mahu membicarakan kepimpinan politik bagi kaum-kaum lain di Sarawak. Focus saya hanyalah kepada golongan Melayu dan Muslim. Kenapa? Pertama, kaum-kaum lain mereka tahu untuk menjaga diri mereka dalam sebuah masyarakat yang majmuk. Kedua dan terpenting, bagi saya mudah, sepertinya watak SAW, dia adalah manusia cukup sempurna, lantaran kesempurnaannya maka dia dipercayai biar oleh musuhnya yang paling kejam. Melayu dan Muslim ada bekalan Islam. Allah menjanjikan bahawa itulah agama bagi seluruh alam dan Dia telah menyempurnakan Islam untuk semua. Maka jika Islam adalah pegangan kukuh Melayu dan Muslim, maka mereka harus kekal pada tuntutan Islam iaitu membawa rahmat kepada semua. Maka jika Melayu dan Muslim baik-baik saja, maka mereka akan menjaga kepentingan semua pihak pada kesaksamaan yang sewajarnya.

(2)    Baru-baru ini kita boleh ikuti Karim Hamzah malah Len Talip menunjukkan kesudian mereka untuk digugurkan dalam PRN ini nanti. Pengamatan saya, semua YB telah menjalankan tugas mereka seperti sewajarnya khasnya dalam tempoh pemerintahan Abang Johari. Setiap YB di berikan peruntukan RM5.00 juta setahun untuk  menyediakan projek-projek kecil di kawasan masing-masing. Kebetulan kedudukan kewangan Sarawak sejak 2012 sudah sangat membaik berbanding dari 2002-2011. Projek-projek mega pula samada dilaksanakan oleh Negeri juga Kerajaan Pusat. Sarawak telah memecut berubah sejak 2012-2026 ini. Maksudnya, semua ADUN sudah ada jasa mereka. Itu tidak perlu siapapun nafikan. 

(3)    Namun pemerhatian saya, biar dari segi prasarana dan ulitiliti, Sarawak telah membaik hebat, namun kemiskinan di kalangan rakyat masih berkejolak. Rakyat kebanyakan tidak memiliki sumber kewangan yang baik dan kekal untuk menjalani kehidupan yang makmur dan sejahtera. Pekerjaan bergaji baik serta lestari tidak meluas wujud negeri ini. Abang Johari sebagai Premier tahap kesibukan, tumpuan dan visionnya adalah untuk negeri secara jangka panjang. Wajarlah baginya untuk menerokai bidang-bidang yang sering dia sebutkan - teknologi hidrojen, teknologi angkasa lepas, teknologi digital, pelabuhan laut dalam, lapangan terbang baru, peningkatan kemahiran digital serta pendidikan berkualiti dan percuma bagi rakyat Sarawak. Natijahnya, keberhasilan semua ini hanya akan muncul 5 - 15 tahun ke depan iaitu disekitar 2030-2045. Bagaimana kehidupan rakyat pada masa kini? Kehidupan kini rakyat-rakyat kecil siapa pula yang harus peduli hebat? Tidakkah seharusnya itu menjadi perhatian berat para ADUN dan MP? Beberapa contoh yang ADUN dan MP perlu perhati dan segera atasi adalah bab bekalan air, elektrik, internet, dan bermacam-macam perkara tetek bengek yang belum selesai sepenuh. Anihnya, kita eksport elektrik ke Kalimantan. Air kita melimpah-ruah namun bekalan ke rumah-rumah di luar bandar belum berubah biar sejak 10 tahun lepas.

(4)    Bila Abang Johari sibuk dengan perkara-perkara besar dan jauh ke depan sifatnya, Menteri dan ADUN Sarawak harus dapat memikirkan langkah-langkah segera dalam memperbaiki taraf sosio-ekonomi rakyat pada masa ini. Janganlah para Menteri dan ADUN juga MP cukup sibuk mengerumuni Abang Johari, sedang masalah rakyat seperti mereka tidak pedulikan. Rakyat kita perlu disediakan untuk menerima serta terlibat aktif dalam segala limpahan dari kemajuan projek-projek mega. Bukan sekadar itu, permasalahan sosial yang sedang rakyat hadapi juga harus menjadi perhatian berat mereka. Cuba lihat kasus tangkapan dadah di Miri yang melibatkan 768 Kg, ini bukan satu nilai yang kecil serta implikasi yang boleh diketepikan. Belum lagi perjudian dalam talian. Apakah ADUN dan MP sedar betapa gejala sosial ini kian meluas di Sarawak dan akibatnya cukup merosakkan. Jika ADUN dan MP tidak sedar dan tidak berani mengambil langkah wajar, termasuk dalam hal-hal kemajuan hakiki rakyat, maka bagi saya mereka mesti mengundur diri. 

(5)    Dalam hal-hal ini saya kira ada beberapa Menteri dan ADUN yang leka dengan membelanjakan RM5.00 juta setahun untuk apa yang dinamakan RTP, namun kesan transfrormasinya direct to the rakyat di mana? Sebagai seseorang yang telah bergelumang di sektor pembangunan negeri selama 25 tahun, saya menyorot kejayaan Menteri, ADUN dan Kerajaan dari sudut transformasi menyeluruh kehidupan rakyat dalam sektor ekonomi dan sosial. Bila mana Kerajaan terus kekal menyuakan subsidi dan segala bantuan kepada rakyat, maka itu adalah petanda, Kerajaan gagal dalam membina masyarakat makmur sejahtera. Negeri maju dan makmur, rakyatnya bagaimana?

(6)  Maka bagi saya melihat akan keadaan sosio-ekonomi rakyat di Samariang Batu, Simunjan, Asajaya, Beladin, Pusa, Kabong-Nyabor, Nangka dan malah di Daro-Balingian, para ADUN yang mewakili kawasan-kawasan berkenaan harus ada keberanian untuk menawarkan mengundur diri. Karim Hamzah, Len Talip, Razali Ghafur, Awla Dris, bahkan Hasidah perlu berani bersikap enough is enough. Saya melihat mereka sudah ketepuan fikiran dalam membawa rakyat ke arus perdana dengan lebih berani dan berkesan. Saya mengira mereka telah agak lalai dalam menjaga sosio-ekonomi rakyat di sana serta binggit dengan hal-hal lain bersifat picisan. Dalam bahasa Melayu Sarawak, fikiran mereka mungkin telah sandat. New blood, new thinking perlu diketengah dan semai di kawasan-kawasan ini. Benar, ada di antara mereka sangat bagus dalam bidang-bidang penting tertentu, itu saya kira boleh diurus cara lain. Kehidupan rakyat, keremajaan dan kematangan politik Melayu Sarawak harus jangan diperjudikan. Ingat bila selepas kewafatan SAW, tradisi membina pimpinan seterusnya menjadi kacau bilau, maka empayar Islam runtuh dan kini kita dipijak-pijak dihina.

(7)    Apa lagi Asfia yang mengatakan "pantang mengalah". Cukuplah. Apa lagi yang mahu dikejar. Saya hanya ingin mempersoal sebegini: "Apakah golongan ini mahu terus kekal di kerusi masing-masing, demi rakyat dan negeri, atau untuk apa? Nanti bila mereka berundur dalam keadaan sudah nazak, dan mereka yang mengambil alih masih hingusan dan terkial-kila, apakah baru berasa berpuas hati?". Malaya jadi tontotanan dan tohmahan kita, namun jejak Malaya jugalah yang sedang kita ikuti. Maka apa bezanya? Sesungguhnya rakyat jadi meluat bila mana kerusi terus diduduki namun rakyat terhenyak parah bernanah sedang mereka berdekah-dekah lalu mati dan rakyat kucar kacir. Sarawak is a gentleman State, so must be us now and forever.

Kuching, Sarawak

30 Oct., 2026

2/10/2026 MALACCA SIGFICANT 7

Thank You Very Much:

Today since 14 Feb., 2009 when I first do this blogging, that was 17 years ago, my blog despite may be running into some technical errors, had hit 1,002,138 times. Last Sunday 25 Oct., I had breakfast with my Omar Ali the FOC Administrator to the blog, he had agreed to look at the matter and to rehash the format and linkages of the blog with other related social media for by next year I would like to explore into doing Youtube, TikTok, Podcasting and Flicker. The figure I would believe is much higher since my monthly hits was always > 10,000. By the way such is not a big issue. I'm happy that I still having big number of readers. There are still lots of people are willing to do some reading at this time of Social Media madness. Those push me to constantly to read, listen, analyze, collate and write. That as Mahathir saying: "Keep him stay longer even to his beloved Hasmah".

(2) Thank You to sdra Omar Ali whom had volunteer his time and skill to manage my bloq. Accordingly, I'm in debt to Busrah Bujang whom introduced me to this blogging interest and Ismawi Awek and Kamaluudin X-YB Nancy Political Secretary whom had encouranged me to write my ideas in the blogging style. Million thanks to those whom had been following my writing.

Malacca UMNo-PAS Politic:

In July 1982 I stood for the UKM Students Union General Council Member Election, Perwakilan Umum, but due to very though rival and uncontrol behavior of both side of tte opposing parties, the election was potphoned. I stood within the TSB group - Tindakan Siswa Bersatu, whom was very establishment supporter. UMNO was behind us. Our opponents was ATM - Angkatan Tindakan Siswa whom were PAS supporters. The Malays students then in UKM were split into TSB, ATMA or the minor indifferent groups.

(2)  The election was reenacted in Sept., 1982 but I couldn't make it. By the way, I was then elected as the Sarawak UKM Students Union President. My office and the PMUKM was just next door at UKM PUSANIKA. I used to call back the Sarawak Chief Minister's Office in Kuching due to some dealing. Only the PMUKM was provided with direct phone line. Thus I need to get the permission to use the phone. A guy by the name of Rahiman Bani was the PMUKM Sectary General (?) who won his seat through ATMA. He controlled the usage of the phone. In those days, the antagonistic between ATMA and TSB was as worst as UMNO and PAS. Well the love-hate relationship among us then was very interesting in educating our maturity process.

(3)    Rahiman in term of age is one year my senior. Academically he was one year my junior. Both of us joined the ROTU @ PALAPES then. He was my junior. I was among those pioneer in the ROTU. I joined ROTU in 1979 and commissioned in June 1982. Rahiman graduated from the Islamic Faculty and served as JAIM Director as his last post. He then and now is a strong PAS supporter. Due to such, he was sacked from his position. One thing about this Rahiman was he is a cool blooded guy. I met him at his kid weeding function in 2017 in Malacca. There and then only did I knew he has a Javanese blood and definitely by age and experiences, we dumb our "kid days hate" aside. He there and then keep close contact with me and vise versa.

(4)    He was in Kuching for the last two days on PERKIM matters. Last night after having nice Laksa Sarawak at Mom's Laksa @ Jln Haji Taha, I took him to a Ceylonese Restaurant for Masala Teh Tarik and Cheese Fried Banana. Indeed, the Ceylonese Restaurant waiter was shocked when I ordered Masala Tea Tarik. There was no such thing as far as he was concern. I would figure out, they don't have the code for it. They only have Masala Hot Tea. But since I know the owner, so I requested for him. I told him: "I'm going to introduce a new menu to your list. Masala Teh Tarik." Initially he was puzzled. Then he smile. I said to him firmly: 'I want Masala Teh tarik Ais. Can you do it?". He replied "Yes" and went off to tell his man on how to do it. Indeed it was simple. Just do the normal Hot Teh Masala, then tarik and put ice and serve. How do you charge? To me so simple, just charge as Teh Masala Ais.

(5)    Normally I don't deal of personal matters among friends or whoever. We can poke fun but not gossiping. Last night with Rahiman, we did talked on few Allah Tests on us. As a religious person, and he is the pragmatic Islamic scholar, we look at what ever 'hardships" that we had gone through as real tests from Allah to turn us into a better person. We don't focus to issues affecting us, but work to our best to be a better pragmatic Muslim in short just work to strengthen our Iman and patience, Sabrr.

(6)    He knew, politic is always my favorite subject. I can stay whole night to debate on political matters. Last nigh our topic was about Malacca Dec., 2026 State Election. Our focus was how PAS should carry themselves with UMNO only willing to give them "the 7 hard seat" out of the 28 to contest. UMNO seem so greedy. PAS seem to be treated unfairly with the so called "maufakat ummah" effort. 

(7)    Since the night was a bit late. I had whole day meeting yesterday, both of us felt tired and would love to retired fast. So I threw to him, PAS must (wajid) to accept the UMNO treat, as a challenge from Allah. Turn such into a course by Allah. It must not be seen as UMNO bad treat. It is Allah the best challenge for PAS to accept and work to the full best to win over all the seven "hard seats".  As Islamic-based Party, PAS must work and trust fully on Allah will power. Despite only 7 yet hard seats left to PAS @ PN, if they can conquer those, PAS defnitely is a Giant Killer. PAS must prove they are not a party at UMNO mercy. PAS bukan parti belas ehsan. the success to conquest of that 7 hard impossible seats a symbol of PAS determination and sincerity in pursuing Maufakat Ummah. PAS walk the talk. The impact to PAS performance in the GE 16 In Shaa Allah will be very pleasing. 

(8)    I requested Rahiman to talk on this to Malacca PAS urgently. PAS must not beg. PAS must no be demotivated. PAS must accept the matter as challenge and great test from Allah. PAS must now prove itself to be real pragmatic Muslim. As those are good in the Islamic faith, the reward from Allah definitely will be very pleasing. We fight our course to Allah pleasing state.

Remember. The number 7 has great significant in Islam. 7 days and night. 7 layer of earth, heaven, hell, oceans and continent. 7 is and odd nos. Malacca 7 hard impossible seats are not a coincidence. Something must be there. PAS be hard fiirm and though to win.

Kuching

27 Oct., 2026

 

1/10/2026 BE LAZY AND NOT BE LAZY.

THOUGH TESTS:

I was damn lazy since the last week of August to end of Sept. I was so lazy to get out of my bed. It is natural sometimes for one to be lazy - unproductive, but not to drag for more than a  month long, especially for hyper active person as me. I can't believe that I turned so lazy over such a long period. I was down in almost everything. My soul was death. My soul gone I don't know where. My emotion I would say, flew all over and got lost. My body turned weak. I lost my appetite to eat.  Normally once I felt body weak, I would drive around to look for good foods. The Japanese Soup or at least the Thai Somtam. At that lazy period, I just turned dead wood - tunggul reput as my kampong Malay used to say. 

(2)    What makes me turned damn lazy? Firstly, I was frustrated, my 20 acres of full grown and well kept banana farm being rampaged by theft. I had been working so hard to established the farm ever since. At least I lost 2-3 tons of banana on weekly basis. Not only that, my durians, I can't even to have a fruit for myself. My young coconut trees were chopped down, the thieves took the shoots for sale for masak lemak.  Some of my best guava seedlings that I got from Java were also stolen. Now is also a dry spell, so much so, lots of

weeding and fertilizing works need to be shelved.  Since I was morally down, that deactivated my body system. I was also down with lots of health issues then. My body was shaky, I can't stand or walk for long hours. I could feel that my body vigor was at the lowest point. Thirdly, my corporate works had been in some mess. In this regard, I have to deal with a very conservative bureaucratic system, to the extend all decision must be made based on idealism theoretical norms. Worst I sensed there were elements of jealousy over lots of my ideas on how especially Muslim entities should move within the current bad economic situation. My dealings are commercial in orientation, which take commercial feasibility as key consideration, on the other side, the government is more concern over institutional authorities. Little napoleons existed all over the paths. Blending the two, squeezed me in two fighting bulls situation. This is amounting to the Muhammad Sabu analogy: "elephant fight elephant, the grass died".

(3)    In the simple words, I was then facing all sorts of challenges and counter productive situations. But Alhamdullillah, my military mind stand firm and pushed me to stand.

RETHINKING AND REENRGISED:

My mind was the best leftover that I have in such damn lazy moment. My body, my soul, my spirit and wholesome of me could be damn lazy, but my mind never surrendered. My brain keep thinking, I can't continue be lazy. Once I turned lazy, the psychological and communal effects will be far damaging. In my Kampong, I can't be seen lazy. My relatives and community had never seen me a lazy donkey. At any moment, my relatives and community will see me active doing what so ever, that sometimes they can't understand. I had been seen as moral boaster to my community. Since graduated in 1984, I had been always trying to show case on how to improve our living standard. We were in great livelihood hardship then and to some extend to this day. Though they seem be indifferent of me, but they keep their close watch on me. In town, lots of friends will also wander, where am I if they not seen me around. Despite I'm always being solitaire, among friends we normally poke each other wherever we be presence, especially nowadays that I keep my long white hair. So far, in town I am the only one having long white silver hair. For that, people poke me as a wandering professor. 

(2)  It was lucky that I got a weeding celebration invitation from my kid days buddy, Rozalan Husein in Kuala Krai, Kelantan. At least I could get out of my bedroom and hoping for reenergizing soonest. I get my other buddy, Ashaari Yunus from Kuala Lumpur to join me. He got minor stroke on last July but I couldn't pay him a visit. We flew to Kota Bharu on the 2 Sept., 2026 and spent our solid two days and two nights there. The insertion photo depicting some of my kid day buddies in Kuala Krai in 1973-75. Rozalan Husein is to the far right with his white kupiah - and I poked him, " He need that white kupiah for his grey hair had gone thinner everyday". Rozalan used to cycle to school form his home at Jalan Keretapi Kuala Krai, that is about 3 KM to SMR Kuala Krai (now upgraded to SMK Kuala Krai). On the way back, I used to ride together with him, and from Jalan Keretapi I'll just walked back to my hostel at SMK Sultan Yahya Petra not far from his home. Rozalan was a nice humble kid then. As far as I could remember, we never argue on any thing. He was also a loyal and hard working buddy. Both of us were school prefect, and he never disobeyed my instruction to carry all of his duties. I was the then Head Prefect. He loves hockey. I chose basketball. Rozalan did not do well in his SRP but he never give up to struggle until he qualified himself to be a teacher. His latest position was the Guru Besar somewhere in Manik Urai, Gua Musang area. He worked through great hardship and even only getting married at the age of 40 and on last 4 Sept., 2026, his eldest son settled down at a very young 25 years old. In class, Rozalan seated to one spot ahead to my left. Both of us were competitor to be the best in the Industrial Art subject. He was very inclined to me for English, Mathematic and Integrated Sciences. 

(3)    Next to Rozalan is Ashikin. She indeed was my one year senior. In those days, once one can't performed well, so one will be given a chance to repeat. Not all, but how she did it I was not sure. She claimed to be in the same class with me in the Form Three, but I can't recalled such thing. I have good memories about my classmates and I even can still remember their sitting coordinate in the class. To this day, I can't figure out Ashikin's position in my class. She was among those who were very close to my foster sister Azizah Hj Harun, of which her dad was then my foster parent and Juariah, Rozalan's elder sister. These three cute senior girls, since they were my senior school prefects, we always be together in our socialization. We used to enjoy having class break together. Through them then I get to know two other senior smart boys especially Dzulkifli Muhammad (whom turned my senior at SMSAH, Jitra) and Mamat Ismail - an all rounder active sport boy. 

(4)    Rosnani Ahmad is standing to my left. She shocked me when she told me that she was married to Mamat Ismail, the smart sporty boy. Now I recalled, when we were in Form Two, why she fought so hard to sit in front of me, but with clear sight to Form Three Class up stair opposite our class. In any class I always occupying the central position. From this cental position, then I could have great access to the teacher. Mamat Ismail was seated by the glass window, and he used to thrown down paper plane to our class. I thought that was a joke gesture of him, and later in 2010 Class Reunion in Bachok only I found out - a message of I love U among the two of them.  She was my competitor in the Bahasa Melayu subject and even to score the best either for the class or overall. She always end up as runner up to me except for the First Term in 1973 (when we were in Form One). In our last meeting, she kept mentioning her dissatisfactory over me: "I never can beat you because of your artistic skills". During the 1972 SRP examination, I painted six pieces of painting and left out side the class for friends to pick up and put their name on. Allah gave me the great soft artistic talent then, I can sketch and paint very well. Indeed my artistic skill gave me lots of advantages not only in Form I-III, but all through my studies and carriers. I'm good at sketching my views and ideas in physical forms and even virtualization of my ideas into graphic in all of my presentations. Rosnani always beaten me in Bahasa Melayu. She swam hard and through lots of winding paths to get into the university. Both of us were Librarian and School Prefect. She was also our Class Monitor. In the Class she used to be with her good girlfriends - Siti Haizan (Ms What Happe), Maziah Omar, Asmarani and Muhayati. They were close to me due to the though characters of the Science, Mathematic and English teachers.  They always looking for me to help them out on those subjects. Myself and all the boys in my class took the Industrial Arts class while the girls went to Home Science Class. Both Rosnani and Rozalan did served as guru at SM(R)K Kuala Krai. In 2010 indeed I paid a surprise visit to both of them while they were teaching.

(5)    To my right is Ashaari Yunus. He was in the Agriculture Science Class then. He was a bit quite. Rarely I encountered him while in school. But at exam time, I knew he was my close academic rival. Ashaari and Rosnani were the two that I must watched on to score the overall best in school. During the 1972 mock SRP exam, Ashaari beaten me to be the best scorers. He scored lots of A grade and I got none. I preferred to score average B. My teachers and friends were hopping me to score the best, but I did not. They felt frustrated. But I have my own study strategy then. Firstly I was concern about lots of friends. Some of their parents did invited me for Nasi Dagang at their homes and there, they requested me to help out their kids whom were my close friends, to score good grade. About three months before the SRP exam, I spent lots of time with them either in the library, classroom or even the canteen to improve on

their grasp over those key subjects that could push them into better scores. One of them was Mustapha Yusuf, a superb popular naughty boy, yet a very loyal friend of mine. He was seated to my immediate right during the SRP exam. That gave me lots of leeway to "help" him out.  If not mistaken he scored less than 15 aggregates, which placed him into Science Class (for about a month then kicked out to the Art stream) and got the Federal Government Scholarship. So much so, I have less time to study for my ownself. Secondly, I now believe Allah guided me not to focus on the mock Exam. I go for the real SRP performance. Thus, on the last month before the exam, I chosen to stay back at the hostel and never turn up to school except on Sunday for the School Weekly Assembly. The full one month, morning, afternoon and evening I focus to my study. Deep in my heart then, I believed I'll score the best. I did it, and I was among top five scorers in Kelantan then. Interestingly in the Warta Pendidikan Kelantan (?) my name appeared as the SM Sains Kota Bharu best student. Ashaari I think he struggled half through and not to the end. In Malay, I beaten him through the Malays' strategy of "cencaru makan petang".  He further his study at Sek Men Sultan Yahya Petra, Kuala Krai then enroute to Alam Shah, Cheras to do Matriculation before entering Med Faculty in UKM. His last posting was as the Institute Paru-Paru Negara as the Ketua Pengarah and now serving the IJN as one of the lung specialist. 

(6)    During the visit I always made a point to visit our teachers. Chegu Mustapha Salleh was a teacher that I never failed to visit every time I came down to Kulala Krai. He stayed in Kuala Krai and all the others are now residing either in Kota Bharu or Kuala Lumpur. Chegu Mustapha, he never taught me. But his younger brother, Muhamad Zain Salleh was my other very close and loyal buddy just as Mustapha Yusuf. Muhammad Zain was a dedicated librarian just as Rosnani Ahmad. We were very close because we love reading and getting the library very neatly organized. During the weekend especially on Saturday, Chegu Mustapha and Ariffin used to organized Free Tuition Class. I didn't have to attend the class, but Muhammad Zain was compulsory to attend. There and then Muhammad Zain will coerced me to come along, and Chegu Mustapha need to fetch me at my hostel. While the tuition classes were running, I'll be at the library attending to some other friends. After class, we will then enjoying all sort of games in school. In the inserted photo, Chegu Mustapha is seated to the end of the table. We visited him at his home somewhere at Jalan Kuala Krai-Gua Musang. His wife is standing to his left. In this visit we enjoy very cheap @ RM15.00/kg Musang King which both me and Ashaari bought by the road side to his home. 

(7)    In our talks, I raised the issue why were we not being organized into Study Groups to tackle academic handicap among most of our colleagues then. In deed I could figure out at least 10 -15 academically outstanding students among us if were organized in such, would be able to help 100-150 students of our batch to do better. Dropped out among us then was very high. All in, then we have about 280 of us in the same 1973-975 batch. Out of these, only handful of us manage to pursue to even finishing the Form Five level. Even then (may be even now) the school didn't do talent scouting and groom us to excel based on our hidden talents. 

(8)    On the 4th Sept., Saturday morning, we had breakfast Nasi Dagang at Kuala Krai Lake Restaurant. Our discussion as usual when I'm around is about politic. I was having the feeling that Kuala Krai had not move fast enough. But Kuala Krai is having great potentials for being in the middle between Kota Bharu and Gua Musang. The Federal Highway will cut through Kuala Krai for Gua Musang. But as I could see, Kuala Krai is having very serious political and public leadership. I was asking: "Can't we groom up our kids to take the lead to change things". I was thinking Firdaus, Ashaari youngest son, whom now is serving the Kuching General Hospital and used to go out eating with me, as the potential candidates. He could be transfered to Kuala Krai General Hospital and we as a group to help out to promote him into politic. This then gave us the idea to form the SMK(R) Kuala Krai Alumni to get the ball rolling. We agreed to set the Committee in our after 2027 Aidul Fitri  Reunion. Rosnani, Rozalan and Ashikin were tasked to get thing moving. 

DISADVANTAGE SOCIETY - PUSH ME TO STAND:

On the 3th Sept., 2026 night, I was invited by Ashaari to help him out over some local kampoung development issues. His relatives and the local were having land disputes among the new comers to the village. The village was developed on communal land. Each houses was developed on lots that were communally recognized and never being surveyed or given individual land title. As time passed by, the original land owners had passed away, so the new generation are facing lots of issues wrt to the land. The kampong was developed on hap hazard basis. No proper layout was made. The roading and drainage systems are so bad and not to the Council standard so much so there was no maintenance. Rubbish collection is very unorganized and inconvenience to the settlers. Over time, I could see this kampung be a slump.

(2)    He called for a discussion among the key figures in the Kampong, and they argued all the pro and contra of what each and everyone had and should do. I was quiet not to interrupt but to grasp what really the issues and chart out later what to be done based on my experienced and knowledge wrt to similar developments that I had undertaken in Sarawak since 1986-2011. Later we managed to get everybody to agree to how they should deal with the matter legally and according to the local authority requirements. All these while they had been langar dinding and having some prejudice over how the system had been treating them. Basically they were not familiar with the government requirements and what each of them should contributed. We ended the discussion around 12:00 midnight. Deep in my head, I told myself not to slow down. Too many things I must continue to struggle for the good at least for my Malays societies. Alhamdullillah the discussion did pushed me to continue to stand and walk straight.

MEETING MY M1V1 = M2V2 TEACHER:

I flew off Kota Bharu on 4th Sept late afternoon and enroute for Putera Jaya. Since my sleep and rest was not in order since 1st to 4th Sept., my body turned very uneasy and I started coughing badly. Once I got coughing and flue, there I knew my health issues will be mounting. But my brain never gave in. My travelling times nowadays was a bit limited, so in any movement I must optimize my time and resources. On the 3rd Sept,., I called Raja Hamizah, my former classmate in Nilai, Negeri Sembilan to arrange for a lunch with my physic teacher while we were in SMSAH Jitra, Kedah in 1976-77. I have longing wanted to meet him. She managed to get the teacher to travel down from Alor Star to Putera Jaya on the 4th Sept., 2026. and I arranged for him to stay at Zenith Hotel. At the same time, another 10 SMSAH schoolmates will be joining us for lunch on the 4th Sept., 2026.

(2)     On arrival, Raja Hamizah came to fetch me at the airport. We then rushed to KLIA Mitsui Outlet Park for dinner to talk on the arrangement for our next day breakfast and lunch. My favorite eat out place is the Para Thai. I missed their Som Tam and Steam Sweet & Sour Squid, and sure their Thai Ice Tea. After dinner, and not to bother Hamizah too much, I just took a grab to my hotel at Putera Jaya. She drove back home to her apartment in Nilai. The next morning she came with the other teachers and we had breakfast at the Cafe by the Putera Jaya Lake.

(2)    In the inserted group photo above, taken at one of the nice restaurant run by a popular Chef by the Putera Jaya Lake, the physic teacher, Chegu Chai Hock Beng is standing to my right. I was surprise to see how "small" he is now compared to when he was my teacher in 1976-77. I was thin skinny then. He was one of the author for our physic text book then and also setting the SPM questionnaires. He is now around 80+ years old. Upon retirement, he was placed at MoE in Kuala Lumpur and Putra Jaya to continue his service in developing physic teaching module. He taught us in Bahasa Melayu which then was not quite well developed as yet, so much so I was caught in lots of confusion. I normally read in English which gave me clearer explanation on the subject matters. I remember Chegu Chai to my death. In one of the session, he was struggling in explaining the concept of equilibrium using the formula of M1V1 = M2V2 which is a reaction to an action is always equal. In a simple words, once we been hard hit, we will surely hit back equally hard. Since his Malay is not good, he can't make us understand well on what he was struggling to say; so to the end we starred at him with blank eyes. His very memorable approach in trying to explain the equilibrium concept  was: "He held my head, which was small then, and he knocked me

against his "big" head". Then he explained, since his head is bigger, denoted by M1, so my small head M2 stunt backward to react to the heavy punch of his big head. V is the force of the headbutt. His V is higher since he was the one whom hit me. So since M1 > M2, and V1 > V2 so much so if M1V1 is to be equal to M2V2 and since M are two heads which can't be changed in term of size, so the V2 need to increase drastically to make M1V1 = M2V2.  Thereon, after class we repeated his verily exclamation: "Ade Faham ka? Letih chegu cakap!".

(2) To my left is Nik Rahim, a Kelantanese, my buddy in the same class in deed. He in those days always in smart attire. Seated to my left by the wall. Very humble and quiet guy. The two of us always being together in many aspect of our socialization. He was Proton Engineer in Shah Alam Office and graduated from UTM Skudai. 

(3)    Muhammad Sabery, also a Kelantanese, is to the left of Nik Rahim. He travelled all the way from Kota Bharu for this meet Chegu Chai. In the class he was seated to my left one point at my back. Mohammad Sabery is a very studious guy. He never lost his smile in whatever sense. He is good in Add Math. We used to exchanged our homework on the subject. He was generous in sharing his knowledge. He graduated as Civil Engineer also from UTM Skudai, and head one of the JKR office. I was shock to know that he is having very deep admiration of what Mahathir had been doing for Malaysia. We are in the same political wave length except he has lots of reserve over PAS capabilities.

(4)    Raja Hamizah was also my classmate then. In my batch, she was considered a red spot girl. She seated just in front of me. In our class, we have 25 boys and 5 girls. Raja Hamizah was one of them. She was the only school prefect from our class. The 25 boys were all 'selected high SRP achiever boys" coming from Kelantan (all the top five Kelantanese including myself was in the same class), Perak, Kedah, Penang and Selangor. I was the only Sarawakian -"Kelantanese" in the class. Raja Hamizah and the other 4 girls were brought into this wild boys class when we were in Form Five. All was Muzaffar Tate, our Pengetua strategy to tame us down. All of us were naughty boys then. Raja Hamizah didn't do well in her SPM. But she never gave up her struggle and end up graduating as a teacher from UPM and up to Nazir Sekolah where she served in Kuching Education Hq Office in 2009-11. She is a nice polite lady. Cute as well. The other two ladies to Raja Hamizah left, I can't recalled. They were said were former SMSAH teachers whom came after I left in 1979.

(5)    To the far left is Mazlan (Datuk), he was not in my class but of the same batch. A Penang guy. Graduated as Medical Doctor from MU. In 2018 election he stood against Nurul Izzah for Permatang Pauh GE14 under PAS. I pledged to help him all out if in the next GE16 he stand in Permatang Pauh to take on Anwar Ibrahim. 

(6)    Right to Mazlan is Ibrahim Donglah, a Kelantanese. We were classmate. He graduated as engineer from UTM. Now a business man residing in Nilai.

(7) Omar Mat Piah is to Ibrahim left. He was also my classmate. He came form Perak. Omar is good in Physic and Aljeebra. He was seated behind me. We used to study together in Physic and AlJeebra then was called Hisab Biasa. He graduated as IT person from MU and served NIOSH. He now reside in Putra Jaya. 

(8)    To the right of Chegu Chai is Tajuddin. He is from Kedah. He was not from my class but we used to cross each others. He then was a very jovial person. He is also an engineer and now doing some contractual works. 

I'M BACK:

On the 2nd Oct., 2026 I flew to Kota Kinabalu. I was tasked to face the multi-state-agencies to defend our Public-Private Funding Initiatives (PFI) proposal. It was tough. Nonetheless with Allah blessing based on our genuine and sincere intent, I managed to get the proposal through in principal. Now I have a month period to crystalize all the comments and views wrt the Proposal and to come back for the last round discussion and approval. All our consultants are now gearing to detailing our Proposal.

(2)    While everybody was busy doing their works, I took off to my Kampong and made myself busy with my farm. This month of Oct., 2026 my target is to get 100 seedlings of Limau Manis & Madu planted. It was done by 14th Oct.2026. Thus far I had planted about 450 points of Limau Manis & Limau Madu. I just need another 50 more to complete my 500 points target. In Shaa Allah by end of Nov., 2026 all those will be accomplished. Rain begin to pour accordingly and I could see my plants are growing vigorously. In Shaa Allah the climate will change to the much favourable in months ahead.

(3)  In view of certain technical details that need to be finalised wrt our Development Proposals in Kota Kinabalu, so on the 17-21th Oct., 2026 I led our technical consultants to check on every needed aspects of the Project. Despite I had been in and out of KK since 2023, I had not spent time to appreciate KK the way I used to do in 1980s-2000s. In this visit I make my time to explore my favorite place - the Gaya Street Sunday Market. I took the late Saturday Night and very early Dawn Sunday stroll the Gaya Street. There I found all those that interest me ie the exotic plants of Sabah - their avocado, wild durians, wild orchids and all sort of many others. In this trip I managed to get the Bolo-Bolo (tampui Sabah), their typical Avocado and Red Dalit Durian. I bought one Red Dali Durian seedling and do my normal way in how to take the plant out. I succeeded and I invited my good Sabah friend to come over my kampong in 20 Oct., 2031 In Shaa Allah to harvest the first fruit. Alhamdullilah now I can see all my laziness will have no time be close around me. My mind will push all part of my body to reactivate as Ibnu Sina had been saying: "All is about your mind".

One saying I keep telling to myself: "Get focus to your genuine and sincere destiny, then pray to Allah;  nothing will block you".

Kuching-Putera Jaya-Kota Kinabalu

15-21 Oct, 2026