6/8/12 PINTA JALAN MATIKU.....my death destiny(draft)

gelap cintaku membawa aku ke pundakMu
dalam kesyahduan semerbak wangianMu
sirna hangatMu menghampar alam indahMu
rohMu padaku, mengasak aku melaju
meneter erti hadirnya aku
lalu aku belari-lari menari-nari dalam dingin runtuhan embun
kakiku tak jejak, tubuhku menukik-nukik
biar senja berlabuh, aku tetap melangkah
dari ArasyiMu, Kau hadirkan bintang-bintangMu
bergemerlapan saat pekat malam berlabuh
memandu aku

my bleeding broken love
took me to Your mountain high
Your fragrant cooled my heart
Your warmth shone me Your divine
Your soul in me, pushing me hard
walking me searching my trueself
i danced to the breeze in the falling dust
my feet float my body fly
Your darkness fell, my foot steps remained
from Your heaven You presented twinkling stars
as the night fall their sparkling intense
guiding me through

kepadaMu aku bersujud
kepadaMu aku menghulur tadah
kepadaMu aku persembahkan
buatMu abadi seluruh cintaku
buatMu sepenuhnya diriku
Tuhan, dekap eratlah aku
pandulah aku melewati pedih lukaku
buka seluruh gerbangMu
pada kudrat jalanan hidupku, mengabdi cintaku
mensyukuriMu, lewat kesejahteraan ummahMu
ke akhirnya
jika aku pergi, hampirkanku kepada syahid

to you i prostrated
before You i raised my hands
to You my prays
for You now all my love i pass
in You, my wholesome i'll surrender
hold me my Lord, to Your dearest
help me walk over all my killing pains
open all Your doors
to my sole destiny
glorifying You, in the happiness of Your human kinds
to the end
if i die, let me be close to martyr

note:

Anthropologist Helen Fisher takes on a tricky topic – love – and explains its evolution, its biochemical foundations and its social importance. She closes with a warning about the potential disaster inherent in antidepressant abuse. She studies gender differences and the evolution of human emotions. She's best known as an expert on romantic love, and her beautifully penned books -- including Anatomy of Love and Why We Love -- lay bare the mysteries of our most treasured emotion. Full bio »
 

There’s all kinds of reasons that you fall in love with one person rather than another: Timing is important. Proximity is important. Mystery is important. You fall in love with somebody who’s somewhat mysterious, in part because mystery elevates dopamine in the brain, probably pushes you over that threshold to fall in love.” (Helen Fisher)

Kebun Teh, CiJinjing, Bandung
18 Feb, 2012